ouuuygghhhg

well, i just see it like they care about us even if the mods dont

one day we'll both get our accounts back

im so perturbed. this genuinely pisses me off. i guess i have to focus more of my energy into my studies for jp so i can feel more comfortable using misskey and the like. ugh. (not that its bad to study or go there, but the entire situation sucks)

and the issue too is that i love being a webmaster for my own sites but i enjoy a social environment that's public. discords are awful for that. i dont talk to people one on one unless its my gf or its short bursts of talking abt stuff. im not a private kind of guy.

happend with twitter. happens here. baraag isn't sustainable in the sense of a home page for talking in a way that these sites are. im not fully a fan of aethy's tos and i do want "normie" stuff to interact with sometimes.

im at a loss with where to go.

my old acct got bonked as one of the "posters of csam" when i only draw fictional characters (loli) and i have a very moe art style, and got cited as putting kids in danger. i dont talk to kids online. i block them, i don't let them knowingly interact. what the fuck

(/lighthearted)

i am your enemy in markdown and bbcode. i use it to be silly. a post base? i dont know what the fuck that is, what do you mean you have css in your bbcode? im going to use headers to scream and proceed to use rainbow text generator to take up my 1000 character limit, thank you

YEAH BUT ITS *FUNNY*

its funnier to use it as a horrified scream than a simple emphasis bold

i dont care i say as my ocd acts up upon being accused of heinous acts

i dont know if anyone else feels similarly about not wanting to present as a sfw account bc of having extremely nsfw interests

and as much as i would be purely sfw i just
feel gross about that in a way, making people expect that im just a sfw artist and wouldn't give interactions to art i enjoy aesthetically

i think it also gets me more here than on twt bc a lot of my friends never came over here but i dont want to be on there, but also i started feeling like i was actually getting followers who cared for my art here

i think it makes me more annoyed / upset because i know it was from reports and that i got no news abt it until i woke up but also that they have kept up posts threatening to harm me

it was a matter of time until the normies ruined it

aw