this isn't directed to any of my followers, i use this account to shout into the void lol

sorry for venting but the ugly side of mental health struggles needs to be heard. i have nothing. ive spent my whole life being passively su*cidal that i did not put any effort into anything. now im almost 24 and i no longer want to die, but have nothing to look back on :/

this is what abuse and trauma does to you i suppose, scrapes you of any confidence you might have and turns u into a husk of a human