Intentions don’t mean a thing.

At least to them.

Abandon.

Sometimes I feel like the only thing that stops me from doing it is fear.

No matter what you do or try you will not be heard. You will not be understood. No one cares since everyone has their own problems and wants their wishes to be fulfilled first.

I hate that sleep has a shit ton of effects on life. You don’t sleep enough - you’re sleepy and not productive, you sleep too much - you’re sleepy again and have a headache as if you were partying the other night.

I wish I could work 9 to 5 but I work 8 to 8…

The things I can’t survive without at work:

1. The rings.

Those rings were handcrafted by my beautiful girlfriend at the start of our relationship. I don’t take them off my finger unless there’s water activities. Can’t risk losing them, they mean too much to me.

That pen saved me a couple of mental breakdowns on work.

Sometimes I feel like I don’t want to play any games anymore. I just want a beautifully looking and somewhat powerful laptop (NO NUMPAD WILL BE TOLERATED ON A LAPTOP) and just sit anywhere in the world working in photoshop and so on.

The thing about being autistic in a corporate job is that you don’t understand anything. You ask for help, they strike you with a sigh and a “couldn’t you figure this out yourself?” Or better yet, they are trying to give you clues and hints you don’t and won’t understand and expect you to do it.

I kind of hate most of the people at work. They are the worst kind of people imaginable. You know those pesky women with miserable lives discussing how bad you and your life is because you’ve made a mistake on a job you’ve been at for 1.5 months, while they are hitting the third year at the company.

Oh yes I love chasing after my morning bus while sleep deprived.

So so mad that my pc is dead omg the prices on parts are way above my little head.

And of course the red ones are more interested into having over 9000 ways to insult a person who would make the lives of the regular people easier, than they are interested in the fact that the whole Federal Government has reached a record breaking 40 days of shutdown.

I also love how the whole world gathers around the American politics once a few weeks and then goes on with its life.

I’m so glad and surprised Zohran actually won the Mayoral Election. In our darkest year so far there’s a faint light in a form of one big American city.

Having high hopes for Zohran and his policies.

This will be my journal since I’m too poor to afford a book and a pen but rich enough to have a Bluesky account.