Lexi Vargas
@ofsoftthorns.bsky.social
When your world shatters not too many people will be there to pick you up from it. Make sure you take notice of who is by your side when you feel completely alone 21+ RP #SOA #MayansMC
- glanced in the kitchen with a smile.] yes please papa. Thank you. [I’d explain why to E later but I didn’t want anyone laughing at me because of that.]
November 18, 2025 at 1:30 AM
- glanced in the kitchen with a smile.] yes please papa. Thank you. [I’d explain why to E later but I didn’t want anyone laughing at me because of that.]
[Once the hug was over I got up and sat next to E brushing my fingers against his. I whispered in his ear.] Thank you for the coke.  It’s one of my favorites. [Papa brought in the food and Pedro jumped up like he was on fire. “Mija do you want me to cut the chicken off the bone for you?” I -
November 18, 2025 at 1:30 AM
[Once the hug was over I got up and sat next to E brushing my fingers against his. I whispered in his ear.] Thank you for the coke.  It’s one of my favorites. [Papa brought in the food and Pedro jumped up like he was on fire. “Mija do you want me to cut the chicken off the bone for you?” I -
- expected here. If he only understood what I went through before, he would understand why I wasn’t willing to jump every time something was offered to me.]
November 17, 2025 at 10:50 PM
- expected here. If he only understood what I went through before, he would understand why I wasn’t willing to jump every time something was offered to me.]
- gotten since I came here. I think Papa and mama were afraid to break me or something. Bishop hugged me last night, but it was nothing like this. “you can have a Coke Lexi you’re not gonna be yelled at for wanting soda for dinner.” I just shrugged. I still was adjusting to the things that were -
November 17, 2025 at 10:50 PM
- gotten since I came here. I think Papa and mama were afraid to break me or something. Bishop hugged me last night, but it was nothing like this. “you can have a Coke Lexi you’re not gonna be yelled at for wanting soda for dinner.” I just shrugged. I still was adjusting to the things that were -
[I finished setting up the tables and sat on the couch, waiting for E to come back. My brother kept watching me like I was crazy or something.] What? Why are you looking at me like that? [Pedro moved to sit next to me pulling me close to him and honestly other than E. It was the best hug I’ve -
November 17, 2025 at 10:50 PM
[I finished setting up the tables and sat on the couch, waiting for E to come back. My brother kept watching me like I was crazy or something.] What? Why are you looking at me like that? [Pedro moved to sit next to me pulling me close to him and honestly other than E. It was the best hug I’ve -
- would never blame Tommy for that, but I do blame mommy for that. It was almost like I was being punished because we lost him due to something that was out of everyone’s control.]
November 16, 2025 at 10:54 PM
- would never blame Tommy for that, but I do blame mommy for that. It was almost like I was being punished because we lost him due to something that was out of everyone’s control.]
- sister deserves time with you baby.” I was so happy to hear that mama was willing to let someone stay because they wanted to spend time with me. This was a new thing in my world. The only one that ever let me do anything for me was pop. Once we lost Tommy things got a lot harder in the house. I-
November 16, 2025 at 10:54 PM
- sister deserves time with you baby.” I was so happy to hear that mama was willing to let someone stay because they wanted to spend time with me. This was a new thing in my world. The only one that ever let me do anything for me was pop. Once we lost Tommy things got a lot harder in the house. I-
[I grabbed a table to help set things up. A smile spread across my face when my brother yelled out to mama “can I stay for dinner? I’m not ready to leave my sister yet. I promise I’ll help with the dishes after.” Mama came in the living room and hugged both of us. “ I already asked because your -
November 16, 2025 at 10:54 PM
[I grabbed a table to help set things up. A smile spread across my face when my brother yelled out to mama “can I stay for dinner? I’m not ready to leave my sister yet. I promise I’ll help with the dishes after.” Mama came in the living room and hugged both of us. “ I already asked because your -
- dinner in here so get everything ready.” I didn’t know what that meant, but I was guessing this was a treat for him as well as my brother.]
November 16, 2025 at 2:22 PM
- dinner in here so get everything ready.” I didn’t know what that meant, but I was guessing this was a treat for him as well as my brother.]
- just went to the movie cabinet. My smile grew wide as I found Home Alone. I handed E the movie and want to sit on the couch because I didn’t know how to use anything yet. “ that is such a good movie, Mija! have you seen it before?” I shook my head and Papa blinked. “E, we are going to have -
November 16, 2025 at 2:22 PM
- just went to the movie cabinet. My smile grew wide as I found Home Alone. I handed E the movie and want to sit on the couch because I didn’t know how to use anything yet. “ that is such a good movie, Mija! have you seen it before?” I shook my head and Papa blinked. “E, we are going to have -
[I flipped through the channels honestly just looking at everything because I don’t think we had this many channels in charming. “You can watch whatever you want, baby.” I smiled up at Papa as he was getting things together to start cooking. I didn’t have a clue what I want to watch. Finally I -
November 16, 2025 at 2:22 PM
[I flipped through the channels honestly just looking at everything because I don’t think we had this many channels in charming. “You can watch whatever you want, baby.” I smiled up at Papa as he was getting things together to start cooking. I didn’t have a clue what I want to watch. Finally I -
- allowed to pick anything myself
November 15, 2025 at 9:43 PM
- allowed to pick anything myself
- around things were different. I could be a kid then, but most of the time I was in the garage with him watching him, Tinker with his truck or his bike depending on the day. I think I’m the only 12-year-old girl that could change oil on a truck.] I don’t know what is on TV because I was never -
November 15, 2025 at 9:43 PM
- around things were different. I could be a kid then, but most of the time I was in the garage with him watching him, Tinker with his truck or his bike depending on the day. I think I’m the only 12-year-old girl that could change oil on a truck.] I don’t know what is on TV because I was never -
[I didn’t know what normal was but to know that we could just hang around until dinner was ready was new to me.] so we can watch TV or something? What can we watch? [I don’t think anyone realized how limited I was as a child. Even something is simple as watching TV was controlled. When pop was -
November 15, 2025 at 9:43 PM
[I didn’t know what normal was but to know that we could just hang around until dinner was ready was new to me.] so we can watch TV or something? What can we watch? [I don’t think anyone realized how limited I was as a child. Even something is simple as watching TV was controlled. When pop was -
- following the rules as was expected in the house. The last thing I wanted was to be yelled at for not knowing something.]
November 14, 2025 at 9:20 PM
- following the rules as was expected in the house. The last thing I wanted was to be yelled at for not knowing something.]
[I nodded not really moving from my spot on his lap. Mama didn’t seem to have a problem with this, though she just kept coming in and rubbing my back every once in a while. ] Okay. are we supposed to help cook it? [this was something I had to do back in charming so I wanted to make sure that I was -
November 14, 2025 at 9:20 PM
[I nodded not really moving from my spot on his lap. Mama didn’t seem to have a problem with this, though she just kept coming in and rubbing my back every once in a while. ] Okay. are we supposed to help cook it? [this was something I had to do back in charming so I wanted to make sure that I was -
- truth was already out there. Everyone in this house knew that someone in that club had hurt me. I just didn’t give the details because I was having enough problems stabilizing myself.]
November 13, 2025 at 10:19 PM
- truth was already out there. Everyone in this house knew that someone in that club had hurt me. I just didn’t give the details because I was having enough problems stabilizing myself.]
[I didn’t want to move mainly because I felt safe in his arms.] i’m sorry I ruined this day. I didn’t think they would follow me here. [I was trying so hard not to fall apart and be strong now, but everything was crumbling around me. I didn’t want to admit to anything, but I’m sure the unspoken -
November 13, 2025 at 10:19 PM
[I didn’t want to move mainly because I felt safe in his arms.] i’m sorry I ruined this day. I didn’t think they would follow me here. [I was trying so hard not to fall apart and be strong now, but everything was crumbling around me. I didn’t want to admit to anything, but I’m sure the unspoken -
- but I didn’t expect that man to be anywhere near me once I moved here. He was and now I was scared all over again]
November 12, 2025 at 7:06 PM
- but I didn’t expect that man to be anywhere near me once I moved here. He was and now I was scared all over again]
- someone tried to pick me up away from E and I freaked out. I started kicking and screaming, throwing my arms all over the place. “Easy, Lexi it’s me it’s papa. It’s okay. Esai can you carry her inside because if I try to lift her again, she’s going to freak out.” I was in trying to be difficult -
November 12, 2025 at 7:06 PM
- someone tried to pick me up away from E and I freaked out. I started kicking and screaming, throwing my arms all over the place. “Easy, Lexi it’s me it’s papa. It’s okay. Esai can you carry her inside because if I try to lift her again, she’s going to freak out.” I was in trying to be difficult -
[as soon as we were in the garage, Pedro bolted for the door to open it so that I could be carried inside without causing a problem. Mama’s voice was soft, but I could hear her. “ we are home now you are safe and I promise you no one is getting in here without mine or Papa‘s permission.” I felt -
November 12, 2025 at 7:06 PM
[as soon as we were in the garage, Pedro bolted for the door to open it so that I could be carried inside without causing a problem. Mama’s voice was soft, but I could hear her. “ we are home now you are safe and I promise you no one is getting in here without mine or Papa‘s permission.” I felt -
- possessed me to bury my face in E’s neck, but I did it despite the shaking and tears running down my face. ]
November 11, 2025 at 3:31 AM
- possessed me to bury my face in E’s neck, but I did it despite the shaking and tears running down my face. ]
- worse for me. I didn’t really know how to explain what’s going on in my head so I just stayed quiet and waited for Papa to get back in the car. I never thought I would be afraid of people wearing one of those vests. But now I hated it and I just wanted to go home. I also don’t know what -
November 11, 2025 at 3:31 AM
- worse for me. I didn’t really know how to explain what’s going on in my head so I just stayed quiet and waited for Papa to get back in the car. I never thought I would be afraid of people wearing one of those vests. But now I hated it and I just wanted to go home. I also don’t know what -
[I hated this. I hated the pit of fear in my stomach. Some of those men in the parking lot were like uncles to me, but there were some. I didn’t know. I also know that things have already changed in that club since Pop was taken away. I never liked to say since he died because that made everything -
November 11, 2025 at 3:31 AM
[I hated this. I hated the pit of fear in my stomach. Some of those men in the parking lot were like uncles to me, but there were some. I didn’t know. I also know that things have already changed in that club since Pop was taken away. I never liked to say since he died because that made everything -
-these guys and I was looking everywhere for an escape route. If it wasn’t obvious that I was abused before it is now.] Mama! [she got us to the car and kissed my head. "Esai hold her tight.” I don’t wanna go back was the only thing I could think of.] don’t send me back please.
November 10, 2025 at 10:35 PM
-these guys and I was looking everywhere for an escape route. If it wasn’t obvious that I was abused before it is now.] Mama! [she got us to the car and kissed my head. "Esai hold her tight.” I don’t wanna go back was the only thing I could think of.] don’t send me back please.