Your work is great and I hope you find a balance that let's you do your thing in peace.

I've been there! Not to overstep, but in my experience, what ultimately helped was sitting down and looking at why I was feeling bad. Then taking steps to heal that pain and prevent it from happening again. Equal parts giving myself time and challenging/discarding creative beliefs that only hurt me.

I always rec Grant Abbitt's youtube videos, he has some extremely basic series to help you get started with simple props to learn the basic techniques!