I am understimulated and mentally exhausted at the same time. Help

I too often crush myself down real small, just to feel alone.

So... Loud...

I just want to listen to chill music and fight a monster to the death

Precious keepsake...
I hold you to my heart,
unless? You are my heart..
My everything connected but apart

Dire keepsake..
If I lost you, would my everything go too?
If so then...
I must hold you closer

Vital keepsake..
Im holding you too tightly,
Suffocating, blinded
Sorry.. i must let you free..

Do not mistake my immaturity for apathy

The sky is fascinating, but hurts my eyes

One day the lines will lead me home

It hurts to be something, its worse to be nothing

I desire to experiment with color once again.