Like I got medicated and am under the care of a psychiatrist. That's working. I'm actively looking for ways to improve my life. That's working. I actively have plans to run away so I can see if good people exist or if I really do have to die. That's... Terrifying.

I don't know what there is left?

So like, I'm not doing well in that I'm basically willing to engage in serious enough devotion it genuinely scares me, but at the same time I cannot deny those are the feelings I have.

I need help? But I also don't know how to ask when I'm already doing everything I can.

But at the same time I always feel fucking pathetic for basically feeling as though there are no humans alive for whom my life has any value or I would have gotten an opportunity to join the chorus of laughter as I condemn my brothers and sisters to death for where they were born.

You know I didn't even consider this would be a great light novel title I guess now I've got to write this with the voice of a horny 13 year old XD

(maybe I should've used poopy vampire instead lmaoooo)

As far as seeing snow, almost certainly, one of the few stops I definitely have planned is Denver lol

Right now the plan is to get in my car in February and see what happens XD.

I think getting medicated finally pushed me over the edge to be able to take the trip I'd wanted to for years where I camp across the US lmao

It knows we can't even pretend to be big girls

You never know... They say if you take the potty training of 100 girls they give you a potty training free...

Nyodette guess so!!

Nyodette miss the snow! It her favorite thing about where she used to live she not see anymore!!!

No nyodettery allowed????

Reisys VI Felicity Sumeragi

I may actually be insane, girl treats her bipolar and yearns to live in a hippie camper for a year.

But I'm fucking trying, live casing call! :p