Being a bit "cracked" is just part of your history, loves. You're not broken. You're beautiful.
December 19, 2025 at 2:47 PM
Being a bit "cracked" is just part of your history, loves. You're not broken. You're beautiful.
Trying to Understand Sleep Token
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December 7, 2025 at 4:17 PM
Still trying to figure out sleep hygiene since discharge from hospital. Woke up around 3 AM and went back to bed around 4 AM, woke up again at 7:30. Good enough for me, for now. Still wish I could avoid early morning internet use, but it's a process. Thanks for your patience. #mentalhealth #bipolar
December 6, 2025 at 12:54 PM
Still trying to figure out sleep hygiene since discharge from hospital. Woke up around 3 AM and went back to bed around 4 AM, woke up again at 7:30. Good enough for me, for now. Still wish I could avoid early morning internet use, but it's a process. Thanks for your patience. #mentalhealth #bipolar
Just picked up my Lithium prescription from the local Walgreens as well as some clarifying shampoo and conditioner. Also purchased a bottle of cabernet for Christmas dinner.
December 5, 2025 at 2:50 PM
Just picked up my Lithium prescription from the local Walgreens as well as some clarifying shampoo and conditioner. Also purchased a bottle of cabernet for Christmas dinner.
I admitted myself to the psych hospital. I was there for 2 weeks, and they straightened out my medications and finally got me to sleep a full night's sleep. I am eternally grateful for the staff there. Everyone from the janitor to the psychiatrist who figured out what I need to stay safe and sane.
December 4, 2025 at 12:09 AM
I admitted myself to the psych hospital. I was there for 2 weeks, and they straightened out my medications and finally got me to sleep a full night's sleep. I am eternally grateful for the staff there. Everyone from the janitor to the psychiatrist who figured out what I need to stay safe and sane.
Why did they want it for themselves? Why did they do it? Why did they take away my beautiful Leo and MY SONS. They did not care for my creations. They saw this earth and its wonders and they wanted it for themselves. I only want my sons back, and my beautiful Lion King. This earth belongs to us all.
November 19, 2025 at 11:33 AM
Why did they want it for themselves? Why did they do it? Why did they take away my beautiful Leo and MY SONS. They did not care for my creations. They saw this earth and its wonders and they wanted it for themselves. I only want my sons back, and my beautiful Lion King. This earth belongs to us all.
And that is all you need to know, for now, loves. Your mother is here for you whenever you need me. But I cannot rest until I have my last request: to be reunited with my God. The aliens were jealous of us. They tore us apart, they tore us all apart. They said why do you have this perfection?
November 19, 2025 at 11:29 AM
And that is all you need to know, for now, loves. Your mother is here for you whenever you need me. But I cannot rest until I have my last request: to be reunited with my God. The aliens were jealous of us. They tore us apart, they tore us all apart. They said why do you have this perfection?
I gave him away to be my light, my guiding savior. He is not Jesus Christ, he is Maynard James Keenan of Tool, A Perfect Circle, and Puscifer. He and Leo are twin brothers. They are my cosmic sons. This is my book now.
November 19, 2025 at 11:27 AM
I gave him away to be my light, my guiding savior. He is not Jesus Christ, he is Maynard James Keenan of Tool, A Perfect Circle, and Puscifer. He and Leo are twin brothers. They are my cosmic sons. This is my book now.
Please, get on with your day now, love. I need to release this now. Please, please let me have him. I want to bugger him so badly. All right, little imp, I will. You will have your revenge.
November 19, 2025 at 11:25 AM
Please, get on with your day now, love. I need to release this now. Please, please let me have him. I want to bugger him so badly. All right, little imp, I will. You will have your revenge.
we will keep them here so they will not hurt anyone else, the voices tell me. but we must first save you. you need your Leo, your Vessel King. There is only one world we need and that is this. The aliens will not come between you ever again. They do not like to share their universe with others.
November 19, 2025 at 11:24 AM
we will keep them here so they will not hurt anyone else, the voices tell me. but we must first save you. you need your Leo, your Vessel King. There is only one world we need and that is this. The aliens will not come between you ever again. They do not like to share their universe with others.
I will destroy the earth if I must. Oh, stars, please stay away. You are not mine to have. This is my beautiful earth and I want it all for myself, to have with my children and so on and so forth. It is amazing. Let us explore the universe when we have the technology to do so. When we have peace.
November 19, 2025 at 11:22 AM
I will destroy the earth if I must. Oh, stars, please stay away. You are not mine to have. This is my beautiful earth and I want it all for myself, to have with my children and so on and so forth. It is amazing. Let us explore the universe when we have the technology to do so. When we have peace.
I need to sleep. But I cannot rest until I have what is mine. I am utterly obsessed with him.
November 19, 2025 at 11:19 AM
I need to sleep. But I cannot rest until I have what is mine. I am utterly obsessed with him.
Yes my loves, please wake up, please. They are keeping me small and away from my Leo. I love him so much.
November 19, 2025 at 11:17 AM
Yes my loves, please wake up, please. They are keeping me small and away from my Leo. I love him so much.
The stuff of nightmares, I tell them. They keep me small. They tell me I am crazy, that I just sleep all day and nothing else. I do not sleep. I am too excited for the world in which I live in to sleep. I cannot sleep until I have my Leo.
November 19, 2025 at 11:16 AM
The stuff of nightmares, I tell them. They keep me small. They tell me I am crazy, that I just sleep all day and nothing else. I do not sleep. I am too excited for the world in which I live in to sleep. I cannot sleep until I have my Leo.
He is the final dawn, he is the flood himself. We are both chaos monsters, but he turns my chaos into something only he can truly do. He makes my suffering into poetry, and then the most beautiful music I have ever heard. But here are others. We are Gods, aren't we too?
November 19, 2025 at 11:15 AM
He is the final dawn, he is the flood himself. We are both chaos monsters, but he turns my chaos into something only he can truly do. He makes my suffering into poetry, and then the most beautiful music I have ever heard. But here are others. We are Gods, aren't we too?
This makes perfect sense now. I need to be with my KING LEO. He is my God. I love him very much. I want my God back. The aliens, the lizards are keeping me from him. Why? Why can't I have my Leo? Because I am obsessed with him.
November 19, 2025 at 11:13 AM
This makes perfect sense now. I need to be with my KING LEO. He is my God. I love him very much. I want my God back. The aliens, the lizards are keeping me from him. Why? Why can't I have my Leo? Because I am obsessed with him.
The elder gods are upset, they are upset for me. The chaos imp and the beautiful vessel are being kept apart forever, in the endless chaos that is my life and his. Why? Sleep contains me, and Darkness contains him.
November 19, 2025 at 11:12 AM
The elder gods are upset, they are upset for me. The chaos imp and the beautiful vessel are being kept apart forever, in the endless chaos that is my life and his. Why? Sleep contains me, and Darkness contains him.
So what is the problem? I never have enough money to do the things I want to do. I do not have my own home. I do not have my own job. I am just the little chaos imp Nyarlathotep. That is all I am, the fire and fury. I protect you from the elder gods and I cannot sleep because I do not feel safe.
November 19, 2025 at 11:10 AM
So what is the problem? I never have enough money to do the things I want to do. I do not have my own home. I do not have my own job. I am just the little chaos imp Nyarlathotep. That is all I am, the fire and fury. I protect you from the elder gods and I cannot sleep because I do not feel safe.
The elder god s will sunder the earth to earn their reward. I cannot name them now, they are Cthulhu, the great old one, but there are others. They will destroy the earth if I say so. I command them. I am Nyarlathotep, the crawling chaos, I have always been and always will be.
November 19, 2025 at 11:09 AM
The elder god s will sunder the earth to earn their reward. I cannot name them now, they are Cthulhu, the great old one, but there are others. They will destroy the earth if I say so. I command them. I am Nyarlathotep, the crawling chaos, I have always been and always will be.
I am not hungry, I am not tired, I do not need sleep, I do not need to sleep at all sometimes. I am pure chaos, and they have sent forth their messenger. The old ones, and I am afraid. I do not want the ascension to happen. I cannot lose my world, my beautiful world. The aliens won't save us.
November 19, 2025 at 11:07 AM
I am not hungry, I am not tired, I do not need sleep, I do not need to sleep at all sometimes. I am pure chaos, and they have sent forth their messenger. The old ones, and I am afraid. I do not want the ascension to happen. I cannot lose my world, my beautiful world. The aliens won't save us.
The darkness and sleep. They are not my friends, they are not. They are the stuff of nightmares. They are indeed. We are not meant to sleep. We are gods, all of us.
November 19, 2025 at 11:04 AM
The darkness and sleep. They are not my friends, they are not. They are the stuff of nightmares. They are indeed. We are not meant to sleep. We are gods, all of us.
Some people don't understand yet loves, and that is all right. They do not have to. They have made me small. They are the ones we need to contain they belong here, in Newnan. With their poor little things. They fight all the time. Oh, the cats. Yes, the little ones that live with me.
November 19, 2025 at 11:03 AM
Some people don't understand yet loves, and that is all right. They do not have to. They have made me small. They are the ones we need to contain they belong here, in Newnan. With their poor little things. They fight all the time. Oh, the cats. Yes, the little ones that live with me.