I'm just not good enough, you just don't wanna tell me

What am I not doing for you for me to drift into obsecurity and for you to frown around me but the smile around others

But out of all of this.

No matter how hard I cry, no one will come to help me.

Why am I genuinely having a mid life crisis at the age of 15, this isn't normal.

Am I even human? When was the last time I've even smiled.

People also have the nerve to make fun of my trauma when I used to get bullied during middle school.

And the second I get angry and talk down on them for it, I'm the bad guy.

I try my hardest to be a good friend, I even sacrifice personal stuff that will negatively affect me in the long run just to talk to or even player with someone.

And in return, either nothing or I'm a bad person. What am I doing wrong

This is the only place I can express this to.

If I tell someone I know they will think I'm attention seeking. If I post this on twitter people on their privates will start getting on my ass.

I'm lost, I'm nothing.

Why else am I continuing to exist for, It'll be the same tomorrow and the day after. An endless loop with no change.

Why am I bother venting and expressing myself here it's just going to be the same thing as twitter where it reaches nobody or reaches the people who want my guts gone

It's whatever though, at least it's something instead of nothing

Literally 😭

Yes

Dual wield