But this chaos, this process of willing a life that one can be proud of is the best that I can experience. A life of dismal and mundane in the toxic void, will always be outmatched by a life that is authentic and is full of genuine hearts. It is better to live a life, than to be conquered by it.

I am scared of making a wrong choice and what happens when the money runs dry. But even in all of this, there is a peace in my choice. Things havent all gone well, my heart has become disheartened by the way some things have worked out, and I wish I could be more able to connect with people.

I knew that I wanted to also transition, so I left. I have driven over a thousand miles to get to Minneapolis, Minnesota. I know nobody here, dont know anything other than what I can gleam from my phone, and I am living out of hotels.

I left a toxic environment in Ga, where I was around family members who were very supportive of the felon in power. They cared so little and bought into the narrative of those in power. Those are the minded people who will not want to see how much has been stripped from most of us in the US.

I say that as someone who is currently in the mix of a tower moment myself. I tried to manifest a life that I have yet to see happen, with friends, family, and partners who truly see me.