adjoining this with the way proximity to Blackness &/or indigeneity via tokenization allows nazi bedfellows to hide in plain sight leaves my optimism tarnished

like my advisor during grad school basically told me he cant in good faith write on my behalf for funding or conferences as i’m clearly uncommitted to the maths research formalism of procuring machinery to answer some question akin to measuring weeds; i love algeom but completionism is just not it

like i’m sorry that i want to deeply invest my time into career pathways that are mutually exclusive & that contemplative pedagogy isn’t a sustainable mathematical practice

like there’s been at least renaissance society show per year that falls into this trap & it’s no longer giving fluke but locus of some shoddy art historical episteme