I meant that Mama watched the show. I didnt mean my friend is my only family. I am so scared.

Fuck I am so jealous of him. He has friends who know everything about me that he can vent to without causing any trouble, but if I tell ANYONE that I'm upset its all gonna be connected to friends, family, community--blegh.

I can barely stay upright, I just want to loe on the floor but I have no privacy ever so if I want to just stew and be upset I will draw attention and bring more people into it

Ah, miss bear from bbgun is missing!