You should watch For All Mankind on Apple TV looool!

This doesn't mean I'm going to stop caring about everything. I'll give my time and energy where I can. But there needs to be a better balance in my life.

If you wanna hang, if you wanna know what I'm up to and catch up, text me x

I want to keep working on my friendships, I want to hang with people more, I want to text people more and chat more frequently. I want to look after myself more, giving myself time to rest and relax.

I want to, and NEED to, do less. So I'll be online less. I don't want to be online as excessively as I once was. And I really don't want to post anymore.

A big part of all this is being so aggressively online the last few years. It's had pros but it has a ton of cons and I'm sick of being sucked into useless discourse and petty fights. I'm fed up of these relationships that feel surface level. I don't know what's genuine and what isn't.

I don't know who are my actual friends and who will drop me like I never even mattered to them. I've found it hard to figure out who to invest my energy into and worry I made the wrong choices.

Despite that I've made very few friends (proper, real, deep friendships) and have mostly made acquaintances or people I dislike strongly (don't worry, if you can read this then I'm NOT talking about you).

There's a few things I do want to write, short form stuff. Maybe they will happen. But otherwise I'm hanging it up.

Doing all of this "work" has meant I've met a lot of people.

And it feels like the community agrees. I'm having a bad time of it all and want to stop.

A lot of the "work" I've done in the last few years has revolved around writing and I'm not enjoying any of that anymore. I hate publishing. I hate the constant admin and publicity. I hate it all.

I'm tired. I started getting involved in the community not even a year after coming out and after 6 years I can definitively say that I just don't think I'm cut out for it. I don't feel like anything I have been doing has much value, especially considering the time and energy it's taking.

Loooool I had Asian families 🤣😭

Oh good luck, I got so much flack from my parents when I said I don't want to learn to drive lol

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We definitely need to chat about it all because that game was like crack to me growing up lol

Yesssssss

I'm sick of a lot of how social media makes me feel. Sick of how I'm never sure whether my friendships are real or parasocial.

Something has gotta give. So I'm making that change