I’m sorry you feel that way, truly. I can’t imagine what you’ve been through. Even if talking online helps, I’d be willing to talk if you reached out. I don’t know if you’re religious or not, but I’ll pray for you anyways.

Hope you get real help. Forget about this stuff. Return to innocence, it’s not a bad thing. If you just read this and think for a second about it, then I’ll have made somewhat of a difference for you. Stay safe.