I just finished take me home by fletcher flora, a noir lesbian pulp from the 50s that I snagged when I was down in SD the week before last. what's crazy is I'm pretty sure it's set in KC based on the descriptions and the fact that the author was born in KS and died in MO. small world...

agree with pretty much all of these though imo Yuuto gives very much Virgo/Libra cusp manwhore

I'm going at the end of october, so realistically I'll probably wait until then, but for that I'm taking the train and I specifically want to drive down. soon 🤞

HELP I SAID TWEETS. FUCK

these tweets brought to you by the fact that I found out one of my fav authors (who deleted their twt) uses bluesky so I guess I'm gonna have to use it too to be able to see their posts... challenge tentatively accepted (will likely fail)

if I'm being honest doing things like going to the beach alone etc makes me miss nat more than anything which feels like having my heart stabbed by a thousand daggers so I really really gotta meet more people lmao

oversharing rn but I still havent gone to her grave :') it's been four months

I gotta meet more people but almost everyone is 22 and hot and rich. I have been going to book off a lot though

sometimes it is very fun and sometimes it is very boring, so many places here close at 7pm during the week and I work until 6 so not really worth it to leave the house M-F, if anything I'm more isolated than before lmao

me literally everyday

god I will but probably not until I get a ps5 bc it was KILLING my laptop 😭

the books just got licensed for printing in english with a new translation, I'm pretty sure! so who knows, it may be more possible than you think!

seconding 👀

I'm doing my best to avoid content on bsky that isn't like. made by my friends lol. we'll see in this approach works but I literally don't need Another twitter in that sense

she is reira in my mind (even tho that means I'm fucking up the naming convention idc)

this is actually horrible news

🫂💖 that's very true, but I dunno, something about the way things are now just feels worse. triggers my existential grief 😭 why get invested if people are gonna move on in 9 months etc. I didn't used to mind jumping into new fandoms but now but now it's like pulling teeth

as much as I'm looking forward to living alone next year, I'm also just still grieving this relationship, and it feels like I've done nothing but grieve the loss of close relationships since 2018. puts a damper on... well, basically everything

not a lot, yeah, but from very different spheres. I'm also not looking for sympathy or anything (though I love you guys), it just feels nice to open a window and air it out sometimes. I do talk about it with a few close friends but it impacts me 24/7 so it's hard not to fixate on