she talks to her friend more than me. i have to try to get her attention when her friend gets it for free. i think i need a break from being near her cause it hurts so much to not have her attention 24/7. she doesn't deserve to deal with something like that. we write songs about this shit

a whole year later, in 2025, the cancelled PRONG game was re-announced, returning to Godot and with the official title "it's, uh, "PRONG" 4ever". fans and casual gamers alike raved for a return to form after the lukewarm reception of the last two titles. we eagerly await further info.

"PRONG 3D" (2024, Unity) was a small spinoff made in collaboration with Wilde Studios, known for GTHO. sporting 3d graphics, it was only available in special promotional sites for a small time, and as such, is extremely hard to track down. only a few screenshots exist.

"it's, uh, "PRONG" DELUXE" (2024, HaxeFlixel) went all in on the color, sporting a rainbow theme and colored paddles and walls. casual players applauded the graphics, but it was panned by fans for forgoing the line in the middle. "it's like a whole different series," said a commenter on backloggd.

PRONG 4 (real title unknown) was announced but sadly never released, citing development issues with MonoGame. the only remaining evidence of its existence was a small leaked internal note.

in a shocking development, "It's, uh, "PRONG" 3" (2023, GameMaker) launched the exact same day. critics praised its "outrun"-esque styling and colorful presentation, but felt it didn't advance the formula enough. die-hard fans preferred PRONG 2.

"IT'S, UH, "PRONG" 2" (2023, Godot) would polish PRONG's core gameplay loop, adding a line in the middle, walls around, and separate scores for both players. the series would gain a small cult following.

"it's, uh, "PRONG"" (2021, LÖVE) hit the scene to mild commercial and critical success. audiences praised its fresh design, but felt it lacked state-of-the-art features like RTX.

yeah but you see me when i'm just hanging around ofc!! i wanna be like that when i'm trying to present my art and ideas too instead of being as closed as i usually am

i can't wait until i'm 30 and have this dumb shit figured outtttttt

dude fuck that. i wanna be more true to myself. i wanna be silly and excitable and weird and horny, and i wanna be liked for it. if "person who's more successful than me seems to do it" is the way i find the motivation for it, am i really gonna throw a tantrum over it? i can't afford to.

i have really high standards for myself. i wanna become a better person and i want it to be because of something completely virtuous and selfless and noble. and now i have something to push me in that direction, and i don't wanna take it, cause it's not pure enough. am i stupid?

i wanted to end this with "and then yknow people'll like me and i'll get more money" but i'm scared that's just true. i'm scared i wanna become less boring of a person just for the social points. even though i clearly Hate sounding so deadpan whenever i write

but i do believe in the power of acting like the person you want to be. i wholly believe i can let myself a bit looser here and there, and i won't have to keep up this stone face all the time. i'm so SICK OF IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

what i do notice is that they're all full of personality and i always feel very very clammed up. i'm a github docs page. look at the way i write sentences online, on this low-stakes whatever account. no flare. no texture. unseasoned oatmeal.

which is so frustrating! i wanna be able to go "oh, so i just draw more stupid shit and people'll like it" and then do it and suddenly boom i'm at that level. i need to build it up

and the online presence of "guy who says any shit and people eat it up" is a byproduct of that. it does not stand on its own. it's the consequence, not the cause

the problem isn't that i don't post *like* toby fox or hideo kojima or anyone else, it's that *i'm not them*. they're not known because they're funny, they're known for making things people really like