I'm so glad that I got out of that sh*thole and I do not want to go back

Why do these family relatives always look for some sort of competition between themselves and their own blood relatives? F*cking toxic mentality that needed to be gone for good.

I really had a hard time sleeping last night. These has been occurring for several weeks already. I try my best not to think about it, but seeing people made me think about it all over again.

Low-key being jealous of people who are around me is bad, but they kept on talking about their jobs and it felt that I'm being left behind. No one wants to take me despite of my appeal of wanting to be useful.