i’m so tired of living as a muted version of myself, i am so incredibly self conscious and it really stunts my ability to express myself

i just want to disappear into nothingness

people are awful, i can’t get over wrongs that i’ve had to deal with at the hands of others. why should i have to suffer long term for other people’s lack of empathy

i wish interacting with people was more natural for me instead of a show that i put on. it’s so exhausting. i wish i could drop the mask but it’s been so long that i don’t even know who i am anymore

perpetually struggling with the feeling of being perceived, but also want to be seen and have meaningful connections with people. i wish that being vulnerable didn’t crush my soul and that i didn’t seek validation from people so much