my future

it never came to this point for me, but i can imagine what it would feel like if this never ended and this thought terrifies and fascinates me

at first i didn't understand why, but it is definitely the same vibe. trying to retain your personality in a world that is never-changing, coming up with new stuff to entertain yourself with while having so little resources that it becomes really hard really quickly

it came to me again as i listened to this song youtu.be/PyAixTkD4YY

i made some friends there, we've been playing games (card games?), there was an older kid there who was as bored as we were and tried to entertain us younger boys
it was... strange experience, trully bizzare, and it really stuck into my memory, even if half of the details got wiped as time passed

oh jesus fucking christ, why