and the constant fear that he's going to be there. I know he most likely won't be, but if he is i don't know what my reaction will be

I have to listen to everyone talk about how amazing he is and how well he's doing and how much money he's making (selling drugs but apparently that's fine bc he's making money)

my friends are the only people who've gifted me anything this year and I've been unable to give anything back. i love every single one of you

i don't trust a single person who says they're comfy, they're literally like sleeping on a rock

please universe we just want somewhere to live, we just want a HOUSE to LIVE IN i won't cope in a single room b&b with my whole family and I don't even want to think about the fact I'd never see my cats again please please please

i want to go somewhere else for christmas day but everyone always has their own family things they do, so do we usually but not this year

then again we're literally not doing anything on Christmas. mum said we're not even allowed to tv on downstairs bc there'll be Christmas stuff on all day. we don't have a tree or anything and im not even allowed to put my own up in my room

as far as I know it's to do with popularity? I think the higher the number the higher the amount of listeners??

if not I think spotify use a algorithm for it bc mcr are my top artist on receiptify but I think that's because I've listened to them more than kno within the last few weeks?? i know kno are my absolute top artist but the way spotify does it is weird

I need art space again, I want to take up glass as a hobby ! it's an expensive one but I enjoy it

genuinely think all this shit with housing has set my life back a few years. i think I'll give it another year and see how it goes. honestly dont know if I'm ready to leave york yet anymore

*sniff*