I spent the last two days wandering like a lost soul, with her presence still lingering inside everything I took interest in.
They are still there, just without a receiver I can share.

She was furious, she called me out for having an ego, and it ended with "This relationship is over".
Just like that, the messaging apps we've used for years, wiped. Every messages, every moments, every stupid stuff we sent each other, gone, with the click of a button.

All it need was a fuse for things to blow up, and it happened.
We were playing game, and on that day, I was being petty.

I wasn't envious, but it definitely helps further fueling my self-depreciation.
She gave me advices, she tried to help me find a way through, but I guess she had been fed up with my stupidities, and honestly I don't blame her.

Few more years gone by, I graduated from university, struggling for months to find a job.
Meanwhile she, while still attending classes, received invitations from companies, and landed herself a job mid-uni.

We spent years playing games, listening to musics, sharing funny memes, giving each other tips.
My interests are filled to the brim with her presence: The Discord custom theme, my music playlists, my game collections, the YouTubers I followed, the artists on Twitter who made works we both enjoyed.

She was a techie, and in my eyes, she's a genius in that aspect. Over the years, she has assisted me countless time when I was having trouble messing around my PC.
I guess that fact made me both proud and at the same time fueling my own self-depreciation.

Her presence for years has grown on me, I find myself loving this person whose I knew nothing aside from her name, no face, no voice, no picture.

She proclaimed her love to me, saying it was a lovestruck.
I, being young and inexperienced, played along, joyous at the thought of having a girlfriend.
We keep messaging each other on a daily basis, and in a blink of an eye, a few years has passed.

We first met online when I was 15, she was 13. It was 9 years ago.