I'd sleep the entire flight if I could but my legs go numb and also the flight attendants are gonna wake me up 3 times to feed me.

【𝕰𝖑𝖊𝖌𝖞 𝖔𝖋 𝕿𝖗𝖎𝖆𝖑 𝖆𝖓𝖉 𝕰𝖗𝖗𝖔𝖗】

"These eyes aren't mine.
This face isn't mine."

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♬ An old song about depression and dissociation on a daily basis.

#music

it was interesting LOL

...so this definitely sounds like a non-issue to most people probably but like its just hard to explain cuz for ME its a nervous habit on top of it being a skill/talent/hobby/job lol

ITS LIKE SMOKING FOR ME LOL

and its not cuz i think my art looks bad or something-- i dont. and its not a matter of working on my art slowly-- i can't lol

i just dont know. the SOUL just isnt currently feeling like its there in my art right now, probably cuz im just pulling ideas out of my ass just to have something to do.

i mean like im still working on art these days but because of my speed i finish things really fast and its just not giving me THE FIX right now so ive been feeling sad/empty inside after lol

【𝐄𝐍𝐏𝐇𝐄𝐑: 𝐋𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐥 𝟗】

"Brandvold, Brandvold...
Can you feel it deep within?"

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♬ Silent Hill 1/Akira Yamaoka inspired piece for Brandvold.

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【𝙸'𝚖 𝚊𝚕𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚢 𝚏𝚞𝚌𝚔𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚍𝚎𝚊𝚍.】

"And you know I am. I may as well be a this point."

✩2021✩

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