no wonder

because normal is subjective!! and he shouldn’t change and i know his brain works differently but idk how to cater to him without also babying him without also basically being mad he has a disability. especially since a lot of our family is ableist and not helping him properly

idk how to describe it and i know it’s likely just him stimming or something but there’s behaviors he has that just seem … idk how to explain aaaaaa like i know its not his fault but idk how to help him without basically saying “just be normal” sometimes and i hate it

forever just gonna be a hideous fat fuck

i jist. want to be good at something. anything. be able to do something worthwhile or helpful or even something to make people happy. and i can’t. i’m so worthless and pathetic and stupid.

i know i have to work for things. but having no progress and it being non linear makes it hard to keep going. fuck my stupid adhd brain.