I’m having one of those days where I feel not good enough. I’m not good enough at anything I do, not pretty enough, not talented enough. Sabotaging myself before I even start. Something’s missing. Where do I find it? Did I ever even have it? Everything feels off. Im tired of everything, even myself.

When an opportunity is just handed to you, how do you grab a hold? The offer waits while you agonize if it’s the right move. Time is ticking. This will change everything. Is it bait or is it your meal? Tick tock.

Most of us dream that someday we will get recognized for our talent and make it big so to speak. What if. What if you had an opportunity to do just that. Would you? If someone was handing you something you thought impossible, would you grab onto it?

Without fb and tic tok I’m feeling very anxious. It reminds me of coming off a drug. My brain is so wired to need it. I’m keeping myself busy picking up the house and I think I’ll go play with my ponies later.

Tik Tok is gone. I deleted fb off my phone. Now what? Now what do I do? What do we do? I had my last talk with tic tok friends last night. One friend in another country was upset for us. They asked to connect to me via another app to keep in touch, they want to know we are safe. I’m full of panic.

Panic, anxiety and confusing mix of emotions is not something I planned for today.

Sheep just relaxing in the sun.

Since none of my clients are on here, I’m going to use this spot to complain for a minute. It’s 6:30 and I need to leave for my first barn cleaning job soon and it’s cold out and I don’t want to. Kiddo had me up a bunch last night and I am tired. I’m not feeling it today.

Still getting used to it over here in the sky. I think it will be a nice change. Hopefully I can find more of my friends.

I guess I have this now.