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Going on a little walk….
Going on a little walk….
YAYYYYY CHRISTMASSSSS :33333
December 25, 2025 at 8:58 AM
YAYYYYY CHRISTMASSSSS :33333
My aunts r lovely tho I feel bad bc I don’t think they know how crazy my direct family has been so I think they’re confused why I’m so weird & bad at replying & why I don’t want to hang out with them and my direct family together I want to hang out privately but that’s not what family is apparently
December 24, 2025 at 9:03 PM
My aunts r lovely tho I feel bad bc I don’t think they know how crazy my direct family has been so I think they’re confused why I’m so weird & bad at replying & why I don’t want to hang out with them and my direct family together I want to hang out privately but that’s not what family is apparently
I wish I was with my dads side of the family maybe without my dad tbh their values align with mine for the most part and when I’m around them I feel like I’m with numerous what should be mother figures to me in my adult years it feels much more comfortable:((( I feel so guilty and sad about it too
December 24, 2025 at 8:59 PM
I wish I was with my dads side of the family maybe without my dad tbh their values align with mine for the most part and when I’m around them I feel like I’m with numerous what should be mother figures to me in my adult years it feels much more comfortable:((( I feel so guilty and sad about it too
Oh I’m feeling very sad all of a sudden :( like Christmas is almost already here and therefore it’s almost over and I don’t feel like I’ve had lovely fun loving family quality time like in the American movies :((( my heart hurts I feel very very heartbroken
December 24, 2025 at 8:57 PM
Oh I’m feeling very sad all of a sudden :( like Christmas is almost already here and therefore it’s almost over and I don’t feel like I’ve had lovely fun loving family quality time like in the American movies :((( my heart hurts I feel very very heartbroken
& ofc I will always appreciate what she’s done for me as a parent no matter what
December 24, 2025 at 8:50 PM
& ofc I will always appreciate what she’s done for me as a parent no matter what
I do love my mum though as a mother she tried her best at the time to raise me with the skills she had and the coping strategies she had etc I don’t hate her not all of me I do love her & that’s what makes it so much harder lol
December 24, 2025 at 8:50 PM
I do love my mum though as a mother she tried her best at the time to raise me with the skills she had and the coping strategies she had etc I don’t hate her not all of me I do love her & that’s what makes it so much harder lol
She was always 2 aggressive with my old cat before he died she was always picking him up even when he was old and flinging him around “playfully” even though he was too old and never liked it if that isn’t a metaphor for my relationship with her as a kid she didn’t care because it’s what SHE wanted
December 24, 2025 at 7:18 PM
She was always 2 aggressive with my old cat before he died she was always picking him up even when he was old and flinging him around “playfully” even though he was too old and never liked it if that isn’t a metaphor for my relationship with her as a kid she didn’t care because it’s what SHE wanted
I remember when I was like 8 years old I asked her to skip a part of a movie where people were having sex and making out and she refused to skip it and I begged her to skip it and she was like fine u guess but did it so slowly that I ran away upstairs to my room and cried and then she came up & was
December 24, 2025 at 7:13 PM
I remember when I was like 8 years old I asked her to skip a part of a movie where people were having sex and making out and she refused to skip it and I begged her to skip it and she was like fine u guess but did it so slowly that I ran away upstairs to my room and cried and then she came up & was
Ok 20 mins in shes like whattt this is an R rated movie I don’t like this It didn’t say that anywhere like bitch it fucking says it in the description now we watching smth else n I know she gna talk through tha whole thing
December 24, 2025 at 7:12 PM
Ok 20 mins in shes like whattt this is an R rated movie I don’t like this It didn’t say that anywhere like bitch it fucking says it in the description now we watching smth else n I know she gna talk through tha whole thing
Yesss mum just put on an R rated movie for Christmas Eve with the family!!! Yes queen I absolutely adore those lack of boundaries and lack of consideration
December 24, 2025 at 7:06 PM
Yesss mum just put on an R rated movie for Christmas Eve with the family!!! Yes queen I absolutely adore those lack of boundaries and lack of consideration
Lolll my parents r arguing abojt wether or not it’s possible to eat ethically sourced meat hahaha I wish they would do that privately I feel so awkward listenjng
December 24, 2025 at 6:04 PM
Lolll my parents r arguing abojt wether or not it’s possible to eat ethically sourced meat hahaha I wish they would do that privately I feel so awkward listenjng
I’m gna take picture of my bedroom bc inevitably my mum will just start doing what she wants w it which is fine but she keeps telling me it’s my room make up ur mind silly
December 24, 2025 at 10:13 AM
I’m gna take picture of my bedroom bc inevitably my mum will just start doing what she wants w it which is fine but she keeps telling me it’s my room make up ur mind silly
Good morning nation I survived the night yayy
December 24, 2025 at 10:12 AM
Good morning nation I survived the night yayy
Ok now im worried there’s smth actually wrong w me I feel nauseous and anxious and dizzy
December 24, 2025 at 1:39 AM
Ok now im worried there’s smth actually wrong w me I feel nauseous and anxious and dizzy
I’m gna get a snack and turn the lights off everywhere and watch a seal video and go to sleep I’ll try maybe painkillers
December 24, 2025 at 12:24 AM
I’m gna get a snack and turn the lights off everywhere and watch a seal video and go to sleep I’ll try maybe painkillers
This place is a madhouse get me the fuck out I can’t bear them I’m so triggered being at home everythjng is upside down here I feel crazy they both just operate like lunatics I wish they got a divorce so badly it physically hurts me whag staying together for money has done to this family
December 24, 2025 at 12:14 AM
This place is a madhouse get me the fuck out I can’t bear them I’m so triggered being at home everythjng is upside down here I feel crazy they both just operate like lunatics I wish they got a divorce so badly it physically hurts me whag staying together for money has done to this family
And I have a painful pimple on my nose ouch and also the cord to my electric blanket was fucking WRAPPED AROIND THE LONG MIRROR STAND that sits on a table why the fuck has my mum done that if pulled the blanked too hard the whole thing wokld have fallen and broke been so loud and caused a scene why
December 24, 2025 at 12:12 AM
And I have a painful pimple on my nose ouch and also the cord to my electric blanket was fucking WRAPPED AROIND THE LONG MIRROR STAND that sits on a table why the fuck has my mum done that if pulled the blanked too hard the whole thing wokld have fallen and broke been so loud and caused a scene why
I have the worst fucking headache in the world I finally fell asleep and my fucking mum was crashing around the house at 11 woke me up idk if she knocked on my door but someone banged on my door twice and woke me up again n now it’s 12 I can’t get to sleep again I hate this place everyone leaves t
December 24, 2025 at 12:09 AM
I have the worst fucking headache in the world I finally fell asleep and my fucking mum was crashing around the house at 11 woke me up idk if she knocked on my door but someone banged on my door twice and woke me up again n now it’s 12 I can’t get to sleep again I hate this place everyone leaves t
HELLO ALCOHOLLLL
December 23, 2025 at 6:43 PM
HELLO ALCOHOLLLL
Also i was like being together as a family is not natural to me I’m so sorry I just don’t feel comfortable and she said It’s not natural for me either don’t worry THANK GOD HE WAS LISTENING TO MY TWEETS
December 23, 2025 at 6:40 PM
Also i was like being together as a family is not natural to me I’m so sorry I just don’t feel comfortable and she said It’s not natural for me either don’t worry THANK GOD HE WAS LISTENING TO MY TWEETS
okok thank god everything is fine now ahhh thank God my mum has changed and gone therapy I was like please I can’t do tomorrow it’s gna be too much for me n she was like that’s fine don’t worry sighhh it’s so hard for me to not feel trapped and afraid and stressed and angry it’s my flight respons
December 23, 2025 at 6:38 PM
okok thank god everything is fine now ahhh thank God my mum has changed and gone therapy I was like please I can’t do tomorrow it’s gna be too much for me n she was like that’s fine don’t worry sighhh it’s so hard for me to not feel trapped and afraid and stressed and angry it’s my flight respons
All my family do is lie to me they change in front of me and become themselves in front of others or in my mums case she becomes whoever the other person wants them to be I need my therapist oh wait who pays for my therapist HIM I can’t do shit I’m trapped no matter where I turn please Lord give me
December 23, 2025 at 5:34 PM
All my family do is lie to me they change in front of me and become themselves in front of others or in my mums case she becomes whoever the other person wants them to be I need my therapist oh wait who pays for my therapist HIM I can’t do shit I’m trapped no matter where I turn please Lord give me
Ok everything’s gna be okay I’m gna make up a something up for tomorrow if I can’t I’ll just lie but I cannot do a lunch thing again I’m sorry we’re doing something on Christmas Day I feel so so sick my father lies to me to my face when we’re together I thought we had an understanding of each other
December 23, 2025 at 5:32 PM
Ok everything’s gna be okay I’m gna make up a something up for tomorrow if I can’t I’ll just lie but I cannot do a lunch thing again I’m sorry we’re doing something on Christmas Day I feel so so sick my father lies to me to my face when we’re together I thought we had an understanding of each other
U guys don’t even understand I’m exhausted I want to go home I feel sick around her and them together they combine and bring each others worse qualities out I just heard my dad call something ret*rded for the first time like who are you, you become somethjng I resent before my eyes
December 23, 2025 at 5:29 PM
U guys don’t even understand I’m exhausted I want to go home I feel sick around her and them together they combine and bring each others worse qualities out I just heard my dad call something ret*rded for the first time like who are you, you become somethjng I resent before my eyes
I want to cry I want to sob there’s not even anyone I can escape to maybe I’ll see if a london friend can help me escape I just feel so alone in my feelings and it feels like no one believes me I have to be strong I have to learn to say no I’m so so separated from them it hurts so horribly
December 23, 2025 at 5:24 PM
I want to cry I want to sob there’s not even anyone I can escape to maybe I’ll see if a london friend can help me escape I just feel so alone in my feelings and it feels like no one believes me I have to be strong I have to learn to say no I’m so so separated from them it hurts so horribly