Honestly don’t think I have stopped shaking since it happened… maybe a bit, but not fully. Trying to read for distraction. Haven’t eaten dinner yet, too anxious. Fuck

I also deal with people being passed out in the bathrooms regularly from drug use, it happens more in the winter for sure. Also had cases of children going missing in the store (only to turn up at the convenience store next door). I’m so tired. But the benefits this job has… I can’t lose that.

💕 *hugs* — honestly I also want things to stop happening…
My work location is right on the edge of a bad part of town so a lot of weird shit happens there. A few months before I started someone was shot in the parking lot right before open. Glad I missed it but I did drive by that morning.

I was SO disgusted with his behaviour? And I’m so hyper-fixated on this incident, I can’t stop thinking about it.

(because it was kids being locked in a van by a guy and the mother was outside the van screaming about her children and being locked out of her van)

The lack of empathy a load of people had during that situation was insane… I do returns and customer service and a guy has the audacity to tell me I need to focus on him & his $5 return, AND NOT GETTING MANAGEMENT ALERTED TO THE SITUATION??? Like hello? What if those were your fucking kids???

panicking a bit, the guy who said cops should be called interrupts my call to managers and goes “so can we do my return yet?” I actually had to stop and I was so shocked, like… dude did you not just hear what’s happening right there?! And you care about a $5 return?! No my manager can deal with you.

The absolutely lack of care people seem to have today is disturbing.
A woman came in to my desk and asked if we had security and we don’t, and as she was explaining what was happening another guy goes “cops need to be called,” and after a minute when I’m trying to get a manager because I’m —

Last few years of my grandpas life was painful and tragic, so he was never online on Facebook and I never texted with him. He was much more a phone call person but rarely had the energy for a phone call.

Sometimes I just wish I called him one more time. But I can’t change that now.

I went and found my last messages with that grandma and it hurts to read because I never did see her again 😢

God I’m ugly sobbing so hard right now.