These tie-downs, obligations, vows, and promises at not at fault for their natural needs. Nor should I treat them like they are at fault.

I can't let go of this deep connection that keeps pulling my soul. I would rather die than give it up. It seems (feels) that important. If I were a more selfish person, I would have given everything away just to jump at the chance to run toward this thing.

In the past, I have treated them poorly for something they were unaware of, increasing the volatility of the already stormy seas. Again, where does this yearning come from? Why has it taken hold of me?

I know that I have to fully contend with this at some point. If I don't, it will destroy me. This is not a yearning to leave, but to go towards. I cannot blame, resent, or hate those closest to me because of my placing upon them the burden of a hindrance (unbeknownst to them).

That is to say, a more practical conglomerate of information was replaced with my one ever-present love. For a time, and still, now, I put away these increasing tides of exploration. Those stormy seas create a tumultuous and inhabitable home. Not just for me, but for others.

Unwillingly, I am placing myself as equal to them to match (or try to) their initial envisaging. Partly, I am doing myself a disservice to compare, but it is difficult not to want to slightly tread in their footsteps. For a time, I stored away those readings for something pertinent.

Thanks! and yeah mostly. But had a new random Twitter friend that gave me an invite! So no I'm here

do you share the discord server link? or is there a process.

goodluck. and let go