+ I still have the issue of having muddy strokes so I have to work on flow hard edge soft edged at the same time it's hard man

I guess I can do the first stage quite okay. But then figuring out the smaller contrasts inside the bigger zones is way too hard. And the way saturation interactive with luminosity really doesn't help

I honestly think I've reached a point where humanities can't help me anymore in the work I'm trying to do

I want to do something stupidly easy in python pandas but I know I'm lacking exprrience so time spent on this is blowing up when it really should be fast

creative thinking is one of the reasons i really don't want to think of myself as an artist but as a tecnician instead. Creativity ? It's not making me learn anything new. Knowing and understanding my tools to reach the objectives I have in mind ? That's more like it

I know I'm the only one thinking that but we collectively need to give up on creativity as a defining core value in artistic work. Since fordism creativity is first and foremost a tool in the division of expert labor. Creativity breeds inequality between artistic workers and abuse in artistic labor

It's stupid but take language. Would you say you needed to invent esperanto, a synthetic language born of the dreams and the creativity of linguistic nerds, to open new possibilities for language ? Wouldn't it make more sense to actually care for already existing languages instead ?

who will access this human creativity ? At the expanse of what other resources ? This is extractivist thought applied to artistic work and thinking of creativity as a resource to create and exploit is the main reason this is happening

Turns out I just needed to turn my brain off and think in a new way but I feel like this is really important step towards me simplifying my drawings down and studying movement

I just want to have control on my work tools :( I hate it when expressiveness and technicality are disconnected

Why did I do humanities instead of computer school or maths (I know why but I'm still regretting)