we gotta body double while we clean

i truly wish i could spend some time in japan alone. just me and a journal and a fountain pen with all the ideas in my head. maybe some fresh matcha. sitting at some of the beautiful scenic places of kyoto that aren't infested with tourists and just existing.

if only.

i miss rp and talking about lehna but it stopped sparking joy for various reasons and i'm hesitant to start again because i know it'll just be the same shit. and even that wouldn't fix anything anyway, it'd just be a new outlet.

lowkey kinda sad japan broke my overwatch addiction (because that's what it was, truly and not joking) because now even that doesn't bring me joy and i get bored. all i want to do is sleep.

i don’t think it helps that a lot of first person stories are sort of subtly meant to be self insert in a way. thinking mostly of romance

you can pry rakdos from my cold dead hands. it’s part of why i haven’t tried actually building my Estinien deck yet lol

"i never start a series until it's done" i'm the opposite because when the new book comes out it makes me want to read it and that's the only way i can keep on top of things