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my blabbering.

Stuck on that view that's only backed up by easily discredible sources.
Sure, some studies have done research on it.
Other studies have done the same thing to contradict that exact study.
Why do you think more people aren't trying to disprove it enmasse? Because they don't want to be known for it.

Hope you enjoyed reading about this small vent of mine lol

I felt like making a post here about wanting to write smut, but now I've turned it into reminiscing about high school and where my skill in writing first showed itself.

My libido overpowers me, but sometimes the will to write is stronger.

I only realized I liked writing because I had taken the opportunity to write out my dreams at the suggestion of my mother.

Now I actively try to write something even if my brain isn't working the whole way. I'm actively trying to do what I didn't want to do in high school.

I went in a circle.

That's just a collective from what I remember.

All of them were nice, and respectful.
They knew I had the ability to write so well that most of them said something similar to that.
They knew I was slower than the other students, that's the whole reason for the extra time I'm given by the school.

And it was always a shame, since every single one of my teachers all said nearly the same thing.
I'll summarize it for you.

"He has trouble writing. He doesn't finish his essays until many days later. But when he eventually does finish writing something, it's very good, with excellent vocabulary."

Most often I write on whims.
A single thought that sparks the idea in me, and something within me is screaming at me, "Wait, this gives me an idea, I HAVE to write this down or I'll lose it later."

When I wrote for school, the prompt was there, but my mind wasn't working.

I spent hours struggling.

I failed Highschool English twice. And those two extra years I spent at high school, I only barely passed.
I struggle when writing something not for the sake of doing it, but I struggle for the reason of I'm being forced.

I write the best when my mind comes up with something on its own.

And so I write.
I write, until something is perfectly detailed, sadly contained within words.
If something I've written feels extensive and unnecessary, that's the point.
I'm fulfilling self-satisfaction for the sake of doing it, rather than to please anyone else.

I failed English twice. Why? This.

One thing among the very small list of things I have confidence in is my vocabulary, and my ability to detail something with excruciating detail.

I am a person with the curse of a photographic, hyper realistic memory and imagination, but unable to put that image out into the world myself.

...Except not, since I'd be writing out the whole thing with no control on the {{user}}'s part.

I could probably write something that someone might even pay for, though I doubt that. Not many people pay for words nowadays, I think.

But if I'm wrong, maybe one day.
Even if it's short.

I've never written anything I could call "smut" aside from AI character bot definitions, but most of those are just the greeting messages you respond to at the start of the roleplay.

I don't know what it would be like to write a full-on story from beginning to end, but my guess is similar to those.

"Why you pausing" lmao

god I can hear the pop and it's playing every time I look back at the second half-