guy says he isn't religious. proceeds to relate his discomfort to christianity

ok no i see why this bothers me now it's not that the theoretical kittypet is the snake in the garden it's that this is being dragged back into eden. that makes more sense

i will bleed and struggle and sob and writhe in agony before i accept safety at the price of my freedom. and if that makes me a sad pathetic loser then so be it

it all comes down to autonomy i think. i would rather suffer and struggle with the knowledge that i had the power and the freedom TO struggle than just give up and become someone else's pet. to be collared and expected to be nothing but a dumb animal

it's especially like. the kind of corruption that promises luxury. and presented the way it is it's just "why would you suffer when you could live peacefully? all you have to do is sacrifice your freedom and become someone else's belonging :))" how is that not horrific

corruption as a concept just like. makes me shaky and angry on a deeply emotional level. and knowing my kintypes it both does and doesn't make sense. why would satan hate the snake in the garden. but that's not really who i am is it? i want a choice and i want it to be made because i truly wanted it

i just need to remember that this isn't shit that i'm experiencing personally, it's posts from people on tumblr who i can just block and not worry about

i'm just sick of being the one everyone hates in every community i'm in

idk i see posts that are like "trans men need to acknowledge that trans women feel unsafe in queer spaces because of them" and i just have to go wouldn't you know it i ALSO feel unsafe in queer spaces because i feel like being transmasc means people inherently see me as a transmisogynistic monster

i see 700 posts that talk about how trans men have unique privilege by nature of being men and should be using it "properly" meanwhile i'm sitting here forcibly shoved into the closet because i'm not traditionally masculine. whatever

being transmasc and gender-nonconforming is a fucking nightmare because the only reason i ever get gendered correctly is when i explicitly tell people i'm trans and yet apparently i'm the most privileged trans person to ever exist. i guess.

bitch you make a kamen rider reference in SS no the fuck you didn't ++

fair enough ++

tilting my head +

supremely. like a fine filet mignot i'm putting mushrooms and a seasoned gravy on you +

putting my hands on your shoulders . +

no one in particular just in general

i want. to see my extended family on christmas. i haven't seen them in nearly 10 years