I won't leave my room anymore, just leave me alone.

I'm sorry for wanting to be a person like the rest of you.

all I can do is hurt myself and try not to hurt other people, or hurt other people and not be able to control myself with no inbetween. people don't care, they want me to freak out, they find it funny. I'm tired of existing just to be someones freak they toy with.

nothing is real or permanent in this world. everyone is lying and saving face. if you are honest or good natured you will be beaten into submission. nothing matters. just be selfish and avoid my mistakes. take advantage of peoples weaknesses, because they'll fuck you as soon as you're in need.

and just fucking face fuck my whole fucking niche or whatever you want to call it out of fucking reality. It can be literally anything I will always be the lowest, worst, scum piece of shit compared to other people because I was just groomed to hate myself by everyone around me growing up.

nobody looks at my art, nobody commissions me, I've tried but honestly I'm just so terrible and fucking lazy that of course it doesn't work. nobody ever fucking raised me properly. no matter how hard I work someone will come through doing half as much work with twice as much product-

having to sit here and lie through my teeth that things will get better to other people because for them it will get better but for me? nah im fucked lol, fate, life, the world, other people, whatever you want to believe. All I can do is sit here alone and draw. I have nothing left.

I wish someone would fucking come and kill me or take my soul out of my body and hand it over to someone else because I just can't deal with the fucking pain of existing anymore. Watching other people just get to live their happy fucking lives while I suffer endlessly over my parents fuck ups

Everyone I've ever loved, liked, or respected has eventually taken advantage of me because of how fucking useless and pathetic I am. I deserve it. I deserve to be abused and shit on, because I'm just not selfish enough. I hate this fucking place. I hate it so much. I hate being myself.

No matter what you do, if you are exploitable you will be exploited. No one has ever loved me without wanting something from me. I am just a piece of meat to be fucked repeated until broken and then discarded. There are many sacred things in this world but I am not one of them.

Karma is not real and the very concept of it is designed to prey upon good people. You should unironically just be evil and selfish and get your needs met without caring for anyone else since thats what everyone else is doing anyways. Nobody cares about you unless you have a value or serve a purpose

omg I love tom delonge!!!

Oh lol ok I wasn't sure if it was the evil meme or literal ( LMAO ) but yeah that's spot on then.

Actually it's not even evil, literally just the opposite of what I do because I'm very weird lol.

It's hard to understand how other people think or come to conclusions, so I often just do the opposite of how I would act and then people seem to think its pretty ok lol.