I'm sorry for those who are reading this, my mind was on autopilot. So the story might be abit doo doo. :3

We have known each other for about 5 months now. We might had move things too fast, but it was fun. Today, i wanted to stop thinking of this kind of things and let her go for now. I know im saying "for now" cuz my heart will still cling on to her.

It was always me who initiated the msg. I would always say good morning and good night or even just wishing them luck with work or classes. I would always make sure to take out some of my time to msg her.

She used to reply instantly or be really happy with me messaging her.

But now..just got seen

After a few months, she got used to me. Everytime i wanted to spend time and play with her, she just told me off and sounded bored and plain.

But whenever a friend joins, she got all cheerful and smiley around them.

I get that is normal to do so, but i am abit jealous about it.

That i will do my best to make her happy. I will wait as long as i can to grab her by the hands and tell her i love her...i also told her that i will take some space to improve myself before committing fully to her.

((This is after i accidentally confessed to her))

We used to do sleep vc, talked alot in dm vc. Even showing each other's faces while watching anime.

We were pretty happy to spend time together. But because of the mistakes. She straight up ignored me without telling me anything. So I reassure her

I apologized and thanked her for pointing out my mistakes. And so, we made up again...but i feel like im the only whose doing the fixing more than her. I get that sometimes i was wrong, but when she was wrong, she didn't want to admit it...

I got really upset with this. I love her too much...

1 mistake leads to the other. I made another mistake where i got a bit annoyed at her in a game. I apologized soon after, and we made up.

After a few weeks, we got into a fight again. This time, i was abit childish, i was complaining on stream that some people on the server were try hards...

She realized my feelings and was not ready for it. So we just became a situationship. Honestly, i was fine as i also want to improve myself before dating her. Soon after, things change for the worse...

I made a mistake by telling her no to other guys. I shouldn't have not done that. It was my fault

We slowly talked and became friends. She talked about her ex which she broke up with a month ago, and was not ready for a relationship. And so i thought to myself, i can be patient and slowly build our relationship as friends. But on one day, i accidentally talked about my feelings towards her...