... i need to make the most of what i have while i have it. i want to look back on these days as fond memories of time well spent, not as a source of regret for time wasted.

i hope this made sense...

i know that it's an inevitability. we'll grow up, we'll get busy, life will get in the way... i just... it's never crossed my mind before just how much i'm going to miss this...

i feel like streaming will help with that... making new friends and building a community based around a shared love of gaming. but i fear that very few things will hurt more than losing that precious time with my friends playing Magic, or REPO, or whatever the fuck else...

one of my biggest sources of joy is playing games (online or in person) with the people i love. it's one of the few things that i can say i truly and consistently enjoy.

i fear for the day that i lose that. they day i wake up and realize that everyone i once spent hours with is too busy to join me.