It’s the going back and forth and no one saying a definitive statement for me. Until someone says “I am doing this” I don’t feel like I can trust anything, and it’s putting me on a back foot. They are doing it for that reason and I wish I could figure out how to move on from feeling this way.

This hit me yesterday. I broke down crying at work and talked with my partner about it. I feel like I’ve lost a community. I feel you, and I’m sorry we have both been there.