thank you 🙏🏼😭

six more hours and the spell is broken ✨

🥺🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼

i remember last year, right before The Incident, i was dreading my birthday so much bc i feel like i hadn't truly processed ebo's death & it felt like my bday meant i'd have to finally face it

then The Incident happened so i never faced it

🙏🏼 bad things don't come in 3s 🙏🏼

🙏🏼 bad things don't come in 3s 🙏🏼

🙏🏼 bad things don't come in 3s 🙏🏼

and the birthday before THAT, a friend passed away unexpectedly

i answered a call while boarding a plane bc i thought he was wishing me happy birthday, like he did every year. sobbed the entire flight home

first time i lost a good friend and i think about him all the time. love you forever ebo ❤️

QUEEN

👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼

the fact that everything happened so close to my birthday sucks bc it really hits home that i lost a full year of my life i'll never get back 🥲

resuming EMDR sessions tomorrow, hoping it starts to kick in soon!

the good news is i think that is the LAST of The Notable Dates

i cried so bad when she took the food 😭😭😭

jk i'm having a panic attack and just asked to reschedule 😭

same

thanks for asking, ken! i haven't started going to the gym yet BUT i have been trying to be slightly more active

(other doctor told me i should take it easy for a couple more weeks, just in case)