So 137 days sober is great, but today was a tester. I found out that a polyp I had removed was cancerous, and I am being dealt with urgently. 12 months ago I would have reached for a bottle, but not today. Feel a bit numb today, but I’m in great of hands.

135 days sober, and while that is amazing, the rest of life is hard. I need work and I need money, but while I wait on results from the hospital of a polyp I had removed, it’s hard to focus. Much easier without a drink, but days are long, empty, boring and lonely

118 days sober, Christmas coped with, now to get my weight and fitness back under control, and to look for what I will do next in my life. Great plane to be in mentally right now

96 days sober no w, and after a delightful procedure at the hospital yesterday, no immediate cancer concerns. Do have to back to get a big polyp removed and checked, but no pressing worry.

Looking forward d to a peaceful Christmas

I’ve not had a drink for 83 days now, but it’s been a hard week. I’ve been fast tracked for a bowel cancer check, and am obviously concerned. It may be nothing, and I am grateful that because I stopped drinking I am getting everything checked. Just want to know the situation now

75 days sober.

I’m 54 tomorrow, so this weekend I am building Lego, playing games, watching sport and spending time with family. Sounds good to me.

Someone asked today if I missed drink, and I really don’t. That’s a huge step forward for me.

72 days sober.

Went out with my parents today for lunch, saw a friend this past Sunday. People would not have arranged these things with me 3 months ago. It’s my birthday Sunday, first one in forever I am looking forward to as I have a super chilled day planned

70 days sober. How different my life has d now, it’s crazy. Long way to go still, but every day is a win for me

Today I am 69 days sober.

Went out with friends for a curry Thursday night. We took a picture and people who see it comment on how healthy, relaxed and most importantly, human I look on the pic. It’s brilliant for me to see the difference in how I look

Today I am 66 days sober.

I was reminded yesterday that what works in recovery for some people may not work for others. But if someone doing well offers advice, you should listen and maybe try it. I have maybe dropped 90% of advice, but was worth it for the other 10% I use now

Today I am 65 days sober.

I still have tough days, yesterday was bad, today is better. Keeping eating under control is hard, moving physically is hard, but I need to move more and lose weight. Motivation can be hard to come by.

Today I am 62 days sober.

Why for the last couple of days have I felt down and restless? Simple. No money, no job, no social life, all because of my alcohol abuse.

Life did not become all unicorns and rainbows 62 days ago. But I need to remember it is so much better than before

I am 61 days sober today.

At the moment, I’m celebrating the small win me. On Thursday, I went out with friends to a bar for a few hours, and it didn’t trigger or bother me. I had a lovely time. That was a win, and something to be grateful for

Today I am 56 days sober.

All is OK. I’m having a lot of dreams about drinking, failing and letting people down, and it’s disturbing. It’s obviously my brain processing my life without my crutch but it’s really unpleasant.

Time to get something new started.