well what does it matter anyway. my disappointment has always been the only scream ppl cared to listen to. i doubt that will ever change

im tired of feeling im the only one on my side. im tired of scripting ppl into following my lead so i can have the type of interaction i want. im tired of ppl not reading between the lines and acting on my best interest. im tired of ppl ignoring my feelings + dignity + desires

and it sucks bc i do want to feel accomplished i do want to be proud of myself but everywhere i turn it feels like ppl are celebrating that the version of me who wasn't as skilledor knowledgeable is gone and no one has to take care of her or show her guidance

i do want to evolve tbh. the problem is that there's a major difference between me taking on challenges and risk that adds value to my life vs being forced to endure and overcome bc someone else wants me to be independent already w/o taking consideration of what i want

first claude and now leona i think i have a type

like if anyone comes to me w/ their companionship that they could've given me back when i needed it most i would be greatly offended

'it's not rly a slavery it's just an economic barrier that anyone can overcome' sure and they gotta climb through so many invisible wires just to get to where they're safe and you know v well it's designed like that to keep ppl underpaid and overworked just so you can keep the economy going so die

'we need women to breed or else we go extinct' you're saying ppl should be enslaved for the good of humanity shut up shut up shut up