And now, I’m almost 30, and I feel like I proved myself a functional independent adult and they love to recognize that 🥹 so like, my reasons for being this way are not well-rooted but shout out to me for doing this life thing fr

Once my mama told me she was proud of me after my first year out, you couldn’t pay me to ask for nothing 😂 that’s why my mother never found out when I was at my rock bottom, I would not allow myself to regress.

But ever since I got put out, I did everything I could for myself, and only relied on a small handful of people for help when I needed it, only asking my mother for help maybe 2-3 times in 7 or so years.

Part because I didn’t want rejection, but part bc I needed to show us all I could do it myself

I sometimes feel alienated from my family and I do miss how close we used to be, but I still make time to keep in touch and see them a few times a year.

Even worse when it’s their birthday or something and now I feel rude if I don’t say something, when I was simply not on this social media app for social purposes 😂😂