mostlybenignalien
@mostlybenignalien.bsky.social
She/her
I used to have MySpace
Now I'm a scientist and I read books
Graphic depictions of being a first time mom
I used to have MySpace
Now I'm a scientist and I read books
Graphic depictions of being a first time mom
If I have to start taking dead wife videos im gonna be so pissed, I shouldn't have cut my hair, I want to be remembered w bangs
January 9, 2026 at 2:56 PM
If I have to start taking dead wife videos im gonna be so pissed, I shouldn't have cut my hair, I want to be remembered w bangs
Found a lump, didn't think it was a big deal but I figured i should make an appointment since its kind of large and wasn't there a couple of days ago. They want me to come in today asap. So I'm starting to worry a little.
January 9, 2026 at 2:55 PM
Found a lump, didn't think it was a big deal but I figured i should make an appointment since its kind of large and wasn't there a couple of days ago. They want me to come in today asap. So I'm starting to worry a little.
I apologize for everything all the time (abusive environment growing up) and my husband finally said its time for me to unlearn that, I love him but this is awful
#childhoodtrauma
#childhoodtrauma
December 29, 2025 at 2:40 AM
I apologize for everything all the time (abusive environment growing up) and my husband finally said its time for me to unlearn that, I love him but this is awful
#childhoodtrauma
#childhoodtrauma
December 24, 2025 at 5:13 PM
I finished my goal of 15 books this year without a moment to spare with Heated Rivalry by Rachel Reid. I'd like to thank the Canadian government for inspiring me to read this book
#booksky
#booksky
December 23, 2025 at 7:31 PM
I finished my goal of 15 books this year without a moment to spare with Heated Rivalry by Rachel Reid. I'd like to thank the Canadian government for inspiring me to read this book
#booksky
#booksky
Just ate 9 dollars worth of blue cheese and half a pound of strawberries and it is moving through me quite rapidly
#foodsky
#goodadvicesky
#foodsky
#goodadvicesky
December 23, 2025 at 12:58 AM
Just ate 9 dollars worth of blue cheese and half a pound of strawberries and it is moving through me quite rapidly
#foodsky
#goodadvicesky
#foodsky
#goodadvicesky
I got new socks! H Mart, my love
December 22, 2025 at 3:56 PM
I got new socks! H Mart, my love
The Vanishing Act of Esme Lennox by Maggie O'Farrell was definitely awkward to read at first, kind of clunky, but once it got going I couldn't put it down. I did go into it blind and wouldn't have read it if I had known there was a rape scene in it, but it wasn't gratuitous at least
#booksky
#booksky
December 20, 2025 at 2:43 AM
The Vanishing Act of Esme Lennox by Maggie O'Farrell was definitely awkward to read at first, kind of clunky, but once it got going I couldn't put it down. I did go into it blind and wouldn't have read it if I had known there was a rape scene in it, but it wasn't gratuitous at least
#booksky
#booksky
My dad is throwing my brother and extravagant funeral bc he feels guilty my brother killed himself after my dad kicked him out. This is about my dad and I won't be attending. My brother wanted to be cremated.
December 20, 2025 at 1:14 AM
My dad is throwing my brother and extravagant funeral bc he feels guilty my brother killed himself after my dad kicked him out. This is about my dad and I won't be attending. My brother wanted to be cremated.
I was searching my email for pictures of my brother to send to my father for the funeral my brother didn't want and I won't be attending and im just so fucking tired
December 20, 2025 at 1:13 AM
I was searching my email for pictures of my brother to send to my father for the funeral my brother didn't want and I won't be attending and im just so fucking tired
I am still watching centaurworld, this show is so insanely good
And it helps my baby likes it
And it helps my baby likes it
December 18, 2025 at 3:15 AM
I am still watching centaurworld, this show is so insanely good
And it helps my baby likes it
And it helps my baby likes it
Its been a week since my brother killed himself, he's still dead unfortunately
December 14, 2025 at 4:40 AM
Its been a week since my brother killed himself, he's still dead unfortunately
The bargaining stage of grief is absolutely fucked, I wish I were angry
December 11, 2025 at 7:54 PM
The bargaining stage of grief is absolutely fucked, I wish I were angry
My mom called my infant son by my brothers name
December 11, 2025 at 7:54 PM
My mom called my infant son by my brothers name
Lotus root is so fucking good when you boil the hell out of it in broth
December 11, 2025 at 3:26 PM
Lotus root is so fucking good when you boil the hell out of it in broth
I hear screaming in my mind most of the time, sometimes it's mine, sometimes my mom's, sometimes my dad's. Just the anguished screams of mourning my dead brother.
December 11, 2025 at 3:24 PM
I hear screaming in my mind most of the time, sometimes it's mine, sometimes my mom's, sometimes my dad's. Just the anguished screams of mourning my dead brother.
My dad's last words to my brother before he killed himself were "fuck you"
December 9, 2025 at 10:38 PM
My dad's last words to my brother before he killed himself were "fuck you"
If my sack of shit brother had called me instead of texting me that he thought I was a waste of a human or texting weird nazi shit then maybe he wouldn't have felt the need to kill himself. Stupid selfish dickhead.
December 8, 2025 at 9:35 PM
If my sack of shit brother had called me instead of texting me that he thought I was a waste of a human or texting weird nazi shit then maybe he wouldn't have felt the need to kill himself. Stupid selfish dickhead.
It's not like ive never struggled with suicidal ideation, but there's a billion books to read, movies to watch, songs to listen to. Theres always another slash fic to read. Or reread. Or people to talk to. Just fucking talk to people.
December 8, 2025 at 9:34 PM
It's not like ive never struggled with suicidal ideation, but there's a billion books to read, movies to watch, songs to listen to. Theres always another slash fic to read. Or reread. Or people to talk to. Just fucking talk to people.
He did nothing with his life, what a waste. I did art, music, became a scientist, I got married, I made a person with my body. I have so many friends and family that I put effort into maintaining relationships. My brother wasted his life. He wasted his only fucking life!!!!
December 8, 2025 at 5:28 PM
He did nothing with his life, what a waste. I did art, music, became a scientist, I got married, I made a person with my body. I have so many friends and family that I put effort into maintaining relationships. My brother wasted his life. He wasted his only fucking life!!!!
It's amazing that even in death my brother is the favorite, my mom just beams when she tells me he wanted the life I have. What a virtue to covet what someone else has worked for. I'm so. Fucking. Angry. I feel as if I'll never stop being angry. I'll never live up to him and he's fucking dead!!!
December 8, 2025 at 5:18 PM
It's amazing that even in death my brother is the favorite, my mom just beams when she tells me he wanted the life I have. What a virtue to covet what someone else has worked for. I'm so. Fucking. Angry. I feel as if I'll never stop being angry. I'll never live up to him and he's fucking dead!!!
I'll never forgive my brother for the way my mom cried in my arms
December 7, 2025 at 2:53 PM
I'll never forgive my brother for the way my mom cried in my arms