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💜 BTS ~ OT7️⃣
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I payed rent, bills, food, clothes and stuff, yeah I did had a better income and the prices on that city aren’t as high as the city I currently live in but man I just want someone to take away the money from me and manage it
September 16, 2025 at 2:29 AM
And on top of that I was freaking exploding the credit cards
Without paying the bare minimum
And my salary went flying all the fuckingtime
I mean while I lived alone it wasn’t like that
September 16, 2025 at 2:29 AM
I have zero savings, a lot of debt and just some bills that I’m currently paying. Including q debt that I have on my sisters name. I believe the term is a freeloader, I live at my sister’s house, I don’t pay rent nor basic services, for a long time I wasn’t even paying for food
September 16, 2025 at 2:29 AM
Fast forward on time.. there’s something about be that drives me crazy but I can’t control I wish I could or that someone could teach but for the love of god I can’t fucking manage money
September 16, 2025 at 2:29 AM
When I arrived home she acted as if I was this toxic person, I can understand if it’s a couple hours, hell I don’t even care if she didn’t say happy birthday I just wanted to know if she was okay
September 16, 2025 at 2:29 AM
The scenarios that my head and fear build tore me apart and I was crying the whole time, I found myself alone, again.
September 16, 2025 at 2:29 AM
I got on the bus to come back home and I almost had a panic attack cause she wasn’t picking the phone or texting back, I had to call the cleaning lady and she got an answer after almost an hour, only then I was able to rest on the 10 hour road trip.
September 16, 2025 at 2:29 AM
There’s something that life has teach me and is to never expect anything from anyone but there’s just one thing I do expect and is my sister’s affection. I expect her call or message the whole day and it never came
September 16, 2025 at 2:29 AM
Oh, the weather on the coast is incredibly hot but being in my second hometown it didn’t felt as exasperating that I thought it will
later I met a friend who also get to know what’s been going on in my head we catch up a bit and then I get on the bus and came back to where I live now
September 15, 2025 at 3:45 AM
Then I went to my second hometown and spend my birthday alone, I went to say good bye to the city that schooled me for almost 10 years, I walked through the streets
I felt safer, I ate at the restaurant I always wanted to but couldn’t
September 15, 2025 at 3:45 AM
I’m not ready to write about that but I felt like she tried to understand my position as a child but she being a mother also put herself on my parent place and I understand, what I also know is that she’ll never do what my mother did to me, at least I hope so
September 15, 2025 at 3:45 AM
At one point my that was hosting my stay asked me if I wanted to met my parents and I told her why it wasn’t gonna happen
September 15, 2025 at 3:45 AM
Actually, you think that being my hometown I’ll go to my family but I didn’t l asked for one of my friends spare room and I stayed with her and her little family for a few days where we celebrated my birthday, I met their children who I haven’t seen in a while or even met them
September 15, 2025 at 3:45 AM
April 30th my boss was fired in the most inhumane way possible, I had scheduled vacations for my birthday I needed to go see my friends from hometown and tell them what was going on in my health
September 15, 2025 at 3:45 AM
All of this maked me fear for my professional life rather than my life itself I was afraid I was going to go missing everything again work keeps me grounded even when it’s shit the team I work with and the people I’ve get to know there it’s really what keeps me sane
September 15, 2025 at 3:45 AM
This tumor makes my hormones go crazy and since I haven’t been on the pills for it my period hasn’t shown up more that two times, yesterday being the second
September 15, 2025 at 3:45 AM
It can be clinically treated but not removable, I had to take pills and keep going to check ups but I haven’t done it since April and to be honest
I’m just letting myself go
September 15, 2025 at 3:45 AM
Anyway, Yoongi I miss you, come back please
I need to hear you say “everything is gonna be okay” again
September 15, 2025 at 2:51 AM
I mean of course it’s awesome that there are more army that supports them but when it takes the one thing I had, the one thing I had for myself it’s fucking enraging and I feel empty again
September 15, 2025 at 2:51 AM
BTS was my safe place to keep myself out of my misery and I had the feeling that this someone took it away from me, I’ve been loving them in silence because I can’t share bring army too..
September 15, 2025 at 2:51 AM