their voices healed me, and because of this i was able to meet beth too and had a sweet day. i feel much better though i have near constant derealization, because the flow of everything is unusual and i'm threading through a weird lifelike dream every day. but i do feel much better

maybe now i should let it in again.

i saw him and i understood. i saw goro tear himself open again and again and bleed his own pain and his mother's and the pain inflicted to him by him mother, a pain so unspeakable that unleashing it on a whole world would not be enough of a flood to drain it. i saw him and i understood.

a father to understand how much it pained him to hear who he truly was, shutting his eyes to pretend the remains of his house were not his prison. but i'm safe here. i'm safe here. this is my house. this is my father. someone spilled their own blood here. no one can make me go away

an unshakable faith and so much strength. i know that it is also because she was that little girl on her computer, too little, too scared, and because she accepted that, too.

beth said that she experienced this too. after being so used to being told that what you do is wrong, isnt valuable, you need a voice that will respond to you with presence. i need it now more than ever. i want to call people, i want to hear their voices, i want my voice to be heard, i want to exist

much to fit in, too much to explain the full extent of what i want to say. it's stuck in my heart and in the constrains of such small words for so much, so much pain, so much everything else. i need people to talk to me and i need to talk. i need to use my voice. i need to be heard

if you make one please let me know, i desperately need more shuake fans on my feed t_t

a lovely passage i wanted to repost