go be nosy and report back to us

what time are we bridge jumping bc 27 is fast approaching for me and i dont want to see it

i swear by this method

but it's also terrifying and exhausting. never being yourself. always hiding something. always putting on a show. always dodging questions and avoiding situations and always being careful. never knowing who will still love you if you let it all go

they say that when your life is filled with people you care about, none of your decisions will ever affect only you. you will always impact someone's life in one way or another. it's a comforting thought, that you belong somewhere and that people connect with you enough to feel that

and i wonder if i have any right to feel hurt or angry because of that. i know myself better than anyone. if i cant stand myself then how can i be upset that others are tired of me too?

and just when i start to feel hopeful or when i have the courage to show my struggles, the people i need for support show me that they're tired of me. even though they will never say it to me, i can see in their eyes and hear it in their voices, and i know what they say to others

if you move out take me with you

like if you're gonna change then at least improve?? why are you a worse person than you were 5 years ago you're going backwards