what i want to say now is that the one death that really hurt me was gongyi xiao. can't stop thinking about that boy and his fate and how he deserved better 😭

gotta rewatch sasaki to miyano after it just to cancel out the effects cause there's no other way 😭😭

for the past 4 months the only answer i gave ppl on my plans for the future was "idk" and it's not bc i don't want to tell them. it's just i genuinely have no idea what i want. i didn't think i'd make it this far and now i'm trying to come to terms with the fact that i do have to live this life

laughing like maniacs while injecting themselves with lethal poison is insaneeeee i replayed that like 5 times now 😭

just two mentally insane unhinged men I NEED MORE