I'll continue writing btw because I refuse to give up on my stories but i'm just feeling frustrated lately.

I'm pretty sure my ability to come up with banger plots helps to hide my lack of writing skills.

I just needed to rant for a bit, it's been eating at me for a while.

For the last couple months, I always come up with the thought "I don't know how to write and I probably never will" whenever I reread what I previously wrote.

I'm not fishing for compliments here, it's just a fact. I'm not a good writer.

And I really was there laughing and saying shit like "Yeah if you say so" and he kept insisting like "But your main goal is to go down stairs without holding the ramp and you just told me you had to go down six floors and you didn't hold the ramp?????"

He's the best tbh.

And every single time he sees how doubtful I am and yesterday he told me how he's so proud because I made a huge progress on something and I was like "You're right, I should celebrate those small victories." and he answered "But this is not a small victory!!! This is a big one!!!!"

I love my PT because he's so supportive of me even though I'm so hard on myself. Everytime we see each other he always makes sure to tell me at the end how good I've been doing or how he's happy of the progress I made etc...

If you so badly need to read about two men fucking each other silly, perhaps books are not for you, may I interest you in the PWP tag on ao3 instead? I'm sure you'll find everything you need in there.

Especially now that I started writing again but don't really know where to talk about it anywhere...

Of course you want me to do it 😂

I think it'd be a nice way to gain back my creativity without the pressure I put on myself when it comes to social medias.
Do I make any sense?

And I just saw someone I follow start a Substack to reflect on the life they want this year and... It's exactly the kind of thing I would love to do as well if I start a newsletter.

It's just that sometimes I feel the need to talk about really specific subjects that don't feel right to talk about on Insta and are just too long to talk on here.

So instead I just write about it on my notes app but I don't do anything about it.

My lift being out of service while living on the sixth floor and stairs being my biggest struggle rn is NOT FUN.