Starting up my ADF defiant path work again. So much has changed in my life in the last few years, so it feels good to have something to work on long term.

I feel so much rage lately. I know why and I know that’s it’s par for the course at this point. But I want so desperately to channel it into something spiritually productive and can’t seem to get to that point.

And they all play such important roles.

I’ve been thinking so much lately about what a transactional vs. reciprocal relationship with na Déithe. I’ve been a years long fallow period, but I’ve found myself praying more than I have in a long time. Not for me, but still. There’s forever more evangelical roots to examine and unpack.

Life has been such chaos lately. It’s times like these I that I understand how people get sucked into cults. I grew up in one and almost got sucked into another. I still miss that sense of community and crave it.