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· May 23
Ooh, what's this? Touching grass AND an #OOTD???
Started taking my meds and am feeling a little better!
#gomentalhealth!
Started taking my meds and am feeling a little better!
#gomentalhealth!
My ex started messaging me again, I finally got a #paypig after leaving the community, and I've been taking my meds.
I wonder if I should try to get my ex to be a second paypig... Jk... Maybe.
Things are looking up.
#findom I don't know if I should rejoin the community, though. It's still toxic.
I wonder if I should try to get my ex to be a second paypig... Jk... Maybe.
Things are looking up.
#findom I don't know if I should rejoin the community, though. It's still toxic.
August 24, 2025 at 5:06 PM
I quit OF because I got tired of being treated like less of a person for doing #sexwork.
It's now free. Either I or OF will deactivate my account due to inactivity.
You can download, but do not post without my permission.
That is all. Tips will still go to me, just no new content. I'm tired.
It's now free. Either I or OF will deactivate my account due to inactivity.
You can download, but do not post without my permission.
That is all. Tips will still go to me, just no new content. I'm tired.
June 23, 2025 at 10:20 PM
I quit OF because I got tired of being treated like less of a person for doing #sexwork.
It's now free. Either I or OF will deactivate my account due to inactivity.
You can download, but do not post without my permission.
That is all. Tips will still go to me, just no new content. I'm tired.
It's now free. Either I or OF will deactivate my account due to inactivity.
You can download, but do not post without my permission.
That is all. Tips will still go to me, just no new content. I'm tired.
For context: Our relationship moved fast and "I love you"s were exchanged by month 4. If that's how he was with me, I know full well that's how he was with her.
If you want a storytime, 10 likes. If not, this is all you get. I could care less, either way. I'm not in a rush to talk about it.
If you want a storytime, 10 likes. If not, this is all you get. I could care less, either way. I'm not in a rush to talk about it.
So, my meds are working and I broke up with my boyfriend because I realized that he emotionally cheated on me. He was talking to someone the whole 6 months we were together. I'm poly, but that shit still doesn't slide with me.
I'm doing okay. Things are changing for the better and I'm happy. ❤️
I'm doing okay. Things are changing for the better and I'm happy. ❤️
May 31, 2025 at 4:27 PM
For context: Our relationship moved fast and "I love you"s were exchanged by month 4. If that's how he was with me, I know full well that's how he was with her.
If you want a storytime, 10 likes. If not, this is all you get. I could care less, either way. I'm not in a rush to talk about it.
If you want a storytime, 10 likes. If not, this is all you get. I could care less, either way. I'm not in a rush to talk about it.
Go thrifting!
I found a pair of Kenneth Coles for $8! IN MY SIZE!
I'M CRYING!
#shoekink #shoefetish #heelfetish
I found a pair of Kenneth Coles for $8! IN MY SIZE!
I'M CRYING!
#shoekink #shoefetish #heelfetish
May 23, 2025 at 9:10 PM
Go thrifting!
I found a pair of Kenneth Coles for $8! IN MY SIZE!
I'M CRYING!
#shoekink #shoefetish #heelfetish
I found a pair of Kenneth Coles for $8! IN MY SIZE!
I'M CRYING!
#shoekink #shoefetish #heelfetish
Ooh, what's this? Touching grass AND an #OOTD???
Started taking my meds and am feeling a little better!
#gomentalhealth!
Started taking my meds and am feeling a little better!
#gomentalhealth!
May 23, 2025 at 8:27 PM
Ooh, what's this? Touching grass AND an #OOTD???
Started taking my meds and am feeling a little better!
#gomentalhealth!
Started taking my meds and am feeling a little better!
#gomentalhealth!
How many times should one ask for help before they give up entirely?
I've reached that point, but I've lost track of how many times I've screamed for help here.
I know no one wants to be depressed here, but I'm a genuine danger to myself.
I just wanted to feel like someone who mattered.
I've reached that point, but I've lost track of how many times I've screamed for help here.
I know no one wants to be depressed here, but I'm a genuine danger to myself.
I just wanted to feel like someone who mattered.
May 13, 2025 at 6:31 AM
How many times should one ask for help before they give up entirely?
I've reached that point, but I've lost track of how many times I've screamed for help here.
I know no one wants to be depressed here, but I'm a genuine danger to myself.
I just wanted to feel like someone who mattered.
I've reached that point, but I've lost track of how many times I've screamed for help here.
I know no one wants to be depressed here, but I'm a genuine danger to myself.
I just wanted to feel like someone who mattered.
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Whatever happens, happens. I don't care anymore.
May 13, 2025 at 6:23 AM
Whatever happens, happens. I don't care anymore.
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But I guess not. Because it keeps you from being able to say that you didn't see the signs or that you had no idea I was at the point of suicide.
The Bystander Effect spreads here. You assume that someone else will help, so you don't.
Well. No one did.
So, suffer with that knowledge.
The Bystander Effect spreads here. You assume that someone else will help, so you don't.
Well. No one did.
So, suffer with that knowledge.
May 13, 2025 at 6:23 AM
But I guess not. Because it keeps you from being able to say that you didn't see the signs or that you had no idea I was at the point of suicide.
The Bystander Effect spreads here. You assume that someone else will help, so you don't.
Well. No one did.
So, suffer with that knowledge.
The Bystander Effect spreads here. You assume that someone else will help, so you don't.
Well. No one did.
So, suffer with that knowledge.
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But you didn't. Not really. You only knew what you chose to see.
So many times I've openly begged for help. Begged for SOMEONE to listen. Just needed to be heard. And what did I get?
Nothing.
You should consider yourself lucky that you'll at least get this warning.
So many times I've openly begged for help. Begged for SOMEONE to listen. Just needed to be heard. And what did I get?
Nothing.
You should consider yourself lucky that you'll at least get this warning.
May 13, 2025 at 6:23 AM
But you didn't. Not really. You only knew what you chose to see.
So many times I've openly begged for help. Begged for SOMEONE to listen. Just needed to be heard. And what did I get?
Nothing.
You should consider yourself lucky that you'll at least get this warning.
So many times I've openly begged for help. Begged for SOMEONE to listen. Just needed to be heard. And what did I get?
Nothing.
You should consider yourself lucky that you'll at least get this warning.
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To show that no one fucking listens until it's too late. To show that everyone will turn their back on you so that they can cry and lie that they "never saw the signs."
You did. You ALL did.
You just don't pretend to care until it benefits you. Until it gets you clout. "I knew her." You'll say.
You did. You ALL did.
You just don't pretend to care until it benefits you. Until it gets you clout. "I knew her." You'll say.
May 13, 2025 at 6:23 AM
To show that no one fucking listens until it's too late. To show that everyone will turn their back on you so that they can cry and lie that they "never saw the signs."
You did. You ALL did.
You just don't pretend to care until it benefits you. Until it gets you clout. "I knew her." You'll say.
You did. You ALL did.
You just don't pretend to care until it benefits you. Until it gets you clout. "I knew her." You'll say.
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"Do you want to die?"
The answer is yes. But on my terms. I want it to be nuclear.
I want to destroy any chance of ANYONE being able to say "I didn't know!" Yes you fucking did.
I've been saying it over and over and over and over.
No one listens.
That's the real point of this page.
The answer is yes. But on my terms. I want it to be nuclear.
I want to destroy any chance of ANYONE being able to say "I didn't know!" Yes you fucking did.
I've been saying it over and over and over and over.
No one listens.
That's the real point of this page.
May 13, 2025 at 6:23 AM
"Do you want to die?"
The answer is yes. But on my terms. I want it to be nuclear.
I want to destroy any chance of ANYONE being able to say "I didn't know!" Yes you fucking did.
I've been saying it over and over and over and over.
No one listens.
That's the real point of this page.
The answer is yes. But on my terms. I want it to be nuclear.
I want to destroy any chance of ANYONE being able to say "I didn't know!" Yes you fucking did.
I've been saying it over and over and over and over.
No one listens.
That's the real point of this page.
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It reminds me that I'm such a failure that I can't even kill myself correctly.
It tells me to try again.
What's the point of speaking to a professional if I can just lie?
Tell them that I don't wish I were dead. That I don't want to kill myself.
They don't ask the right question:
It tells me to try again.
What's the point of speaking to a professional if I can just lie?
Tell them that I don't wish I were dead. That I don't want to kill myself.
They don't ask the right question:
May 13, 2025 at 6:23 AM
It reminds me that I'm such a failure that I can't even kill myself correctly.
It tells me to try again.
What's the point of speaking to a professional if I can just lie?
Tell them that I don't wish I were dead. That I don't want to kill myself.
They don't ask the right question:
It tells me to try again.
What's the point of speaking to a professional if I can just lie?
Tell them that I don't wish I were dead. That I don't want to kill myself.
They don't ask the right question:
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I keep being asked if I have a plan to kill myself.
I didn't have a plan when I tried the first three times.
I've chugged bleach twice (once with pain meds to try and OD as well.)
I've tried to OD twice (once with bleach, the other without.)
There's still that voice in the back of my head.
I didn't have a plan when I tried the first three times.
I've chugged bleach twice (once with pain meds to try and OD as well.)
I've tried to OD twice (once with bleach, the other without.)
There's still that voice in the back of my head.
May 13, 2025 at 6:23 AM
I keep being asked if I have a plan to kill myself.
I didn't have a plan when I tried the first three times.
I've chugged bleach twice (once with pain meds to try and OD as well.)
I've tried to OD twice (once with bleach, the other without.)
There's still that voice in the back of my head.
I didn't have a plan when I tried the first three times.
I've chugged bleach twice (once with pain meds to try and OD as well.)
I've tried to OD twice (once with bleach, the other without.)
There's still that voice in the back of my head.
I'm tired of it all. Everything.
I'm not human to you.
I bleed, I scream for help. Nothing.
I'm useless to you, so you're fine with letting me fall.
I have no one and was foolish to think that this would help.
How fucking stupid of me.
I'll keep it to myself.
Thanks.
I'm not human to you.
I bleed, I scream for help. Nothing.
I'm useless to you, so you're fine with letting me fall.
I have no one and was foolish to think that this would help.
How fucking stupid of me.
I'll keep it to myself.
Thanks.
May 12, 2025 at 6:00 PM
I'm tired of it all. Everything.
I'm not human to you.
I bleed, I scream for help. Nothing.
I'm useless to you, so you're fine with letting me fall.
I have no one and was foolish to think that this would help.
How fucking stupid of me.
I'll keep it to myself.
Thanks.
I'm not human to you.
I bleed, I scream for help. Nothing.
I'm useless to you, so you're fine with letting me fall.
I have no one and was foolish to think that this would help.
How fucking stupid of me.
I'll keep it to myself.
Thanks.
FUCKING NOTICE ME.
I FEEL LIKE I WANT TO DIE AND NO ONE IS FUCKING LISTENING.
I'M MORE THSN AN OBJECT FOR SEX. I AM A FUCKING HUMAN BEING WHO IS AT HER WITS END.
STOP PRETENDING YOU CAN'T SEE ME. STOP ONLY INTERACTING WHEN I CAN DO SOMETHING FOR YOU.
I'M FUCKING REAL.
I FEEL LIKE I WANT TO DIE AND NO ONE IS FUCKING LISTENING.
I'M MORE THSN AN OBJECT FOR SEX. I AM A FUCKING HUMAN BEING WHO IS AT HER WITS END.
STOP PRETENDING YOU CAN'T SEE ME. STOP ONLY INTERACTING WHEN I CAN DO SOMETHING FOR YOU.
I'M FUCKING REAL.
May 12, 2025 at 5:54 PM
FUCKING NOTICE ME.
I FEEL LIKE I WANT TO DIE AND NO ONE IS FUCKING LISTENING.
I'M MORE THSN AN OBJECT FOR SEX. I AM A FUCKING HUMAN BEING WHO IS AT HER WITS END.
STOP PRETENDING YOU CAN'T SEE ME. STOP ONLY INTERACTING WHEN I CAN DO SOMETHING FOR YOU.
I'M FUCKING REAL.
I FEEL LIKE I WANT TO DIE AND NO ONE IS FUCKING LISTENING.
I'M MORE THSN AN OBJECT FOR SEX. I AM A FUCKING HUMAN BEING WHO IS AT HER WITS END.
STOP PRETENDING YOU CAN'T SEE ME. STOP ONLY INTERACTING WHEN I CAN DO SOMETHING FOR YOU.
I'M FUCKING REAL.
If I had the $55, I'd pay it just to start quitting. The problem is, I don't have extra money because rent is due.
My inhaler is covered though, so as I'm wheezing because I'm smoking too much, I'll be able to use my it. 😑
And yet, Luigi's the bad guy? Be so fr right now.
My inhaler is covered though, so as I'm wheezing because I'm smoking too much, I'll be able to use my it. 😑
And yet, Luigi's the bad guy? Be so fr right now.
My insurance won't cover nicotine patches and the pharmacy is charging $55 for them.
So, my insurance will cover the cost of treatment if I get lung cancer but won't cover the cost of the patches that will help me quit?
America, everyone.
#americanhealthcare #healthinsurance #medicalcare
So, my insurance will cover the cost of treatment if I get lung cancer but won't cover the cost of the patches that will help me quit?
America, everyone.
#americanhealthcare #healthinsurance #medicalcare
May 5, 2025 at 7:37 PM
If I had the $55, I'd pay it just to start quitting. The problem is, I don't have extra money because rent is due.
My inhaler is covered though, so as I'm wheezing because I'm smoking too much, I'll be able to use my it. 😑
And yet, Luigi's the bad guy? Be so fr right now.
My inhaler is covered though, so as I'm wheezing because I'm smoking too much, I'll be able to use my it. 😑
And yet, Luigi's the bad guy? Be so fr right now.
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[Page Explanation]
-Why are you doing this?
•The short answer is: Documentation and transparency. Mental health is still very stigmatized and is treated in a very "don't ask, don't tell" way. It means that needs don't get met and suffering is done in silence. I'm done keeping my struggles hush.
-Why are you doing this?
•The short answer is: Documentation and transparency. Mental health is still very stigmatized and is treated in a very "don't ask, don't tell" way. It means that needs don't get met and suffering is done in silence. I'm done keeping my struggles hush.
May 1, 2025 at 8:13 PM
[Page Explanation]
-Why are you doing this?
•The short answer is: Documentation and transparency. Mental health is still very stigmatized and is treated in a very "don't ask, don't tell" way. It means that needs don't get met and suffering is done in silence. I'm done keeping my struggles hush.
-Why are you doing this?
•The short answer is: Documentation and transparency. Mental health is still very stigmatized and is treated in a very "don't ask, don't tell" way. It means that needs don't get met and suffering is done in silence. I'm done keeping my struggles hush.
May 1, 2025 at 7:49 PM
So, I guess this will mark the start of me properly chronicling my mental health journey. When I can finally see a psychiatrist (should be within the next week) I'll post any diagnoses I receive.
Imma just make another page for this journey as I have entirely too much shit here.
#mentalhealth
Imma just make another page for this journey as I have entirely too much shit here.
#mentalhealth
Actively making a call to speak to a psychiatrist.
I haven't been okay. Taking the step to start being okay is scary as hell, but I'm truly afraid that I'm going to hurt myself if I don't.
So, yeah. Therapy.
#mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #depression #mentalhealthinBDSMspaces
I haven't been okay. Taking the step to start being okay is scary as hell, but I'm truly afraid that I'm going to hurt myself if I don't.
So, yeah. Therapy.
#mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #depression #mentalhealthinBDSMspaces
May 1, 2025 at 7:42 PM
So, I guess this will mark the start of me properly chronicling my mental health journey. When I can finally see a psychiatrist (should be within the next week) I'll post any diagnoses I receive.
Imma just make another page for this journey as I have entirely too much shit here.
#mentalhealth
Imma just make another page for this journey as I have entirely too much shit here.
#mentalhealth
Actively making a call to speak to a psychiatrist.
I haven't been okay. Taking the step to start being okay is scary as hell, but I'm truly afraid that I'm going to hurt myself if I don't.
So, yeah. Therapy.
#mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #depression #mentalhealthinBDSMspaces
I haven't been okay. Taking the step to start being okay is scary as hell, but I'm truly afraid that I'm going to hurt myself if I don't.
So, yeah. Therapy.
#mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #depression #mentalhealthinBDSMspaces
May 1, 2025 at 7:38 PM
Actively making a call to speak to a psychiatrist.
I haven't been okay. Taking the step to start being okay is scary as hell, but I'm truly afraid that I'm going to hurt myself if I don't.
So, yeah. Therapy.
#mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #depression #mentalhealthinBDSMspaces
I haven't been okay. Taking the step to start being okay is scary as hell, but I'm truly afraid that I'm going to hurt myself if I don't.
So, yeah. Therapy.
#mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #depression #mentalhealthinBDSMspaces
A bit of audio. Sounds more choppy here than IRL. You have no idea just how geeked I am about this.
April 26, 2025 at 10:17 PM
A bit of audio. Sounds more choppy here than IRL. You have no idea just how geeked I am about this.
I can finally listen to my CDs again! 😭
I found this at my local Goodwill for $6 and it works! (Really well, too! Loud!)
Celine Dion's beautiful voice shall fill this apartment!
#vintage (That one hurt.) #2000sCore #ThriftingFinds
I found this at my local Goodwill for $6 and it works! (Really well, too! Loud!)
Celine Dion's beautiful voice shall fill this apartment!
#vintage (That one hurt.) #2000sCore #ThriftingFinds
April 26, 2025 at 10:15 PM
I can finally listen to my CDs again! 😭
I found this at my local Goodwill for $6 and it works! (Really well, too! Loud!)
Celine Dion's beautiful voice shall fill this apartment!
#vintage (That one hurt.) #2000sCore #ThriftingFinds
I found this at my local Goodwill for $6 and it works! (Really well, too! Loud!)
Celine Dion's beautiful voice shall fill this apartment!
#vintage (That one hurt.) #2000sCore #ThriftingFinds
BTW, I make reasonably priced edibles.
Have a Happy Hoppy 420 this year!
(Note: I do not deliver at the moment and any orders will be completed after 420. Yes, I should've advertised sooner, lol.)
#happy420 #happyeaster
Have a Happy Hoppy 420 this year!
(Note: I do not deliver at the moment and any orders will be completed after 420. Yes, I should've advertised sooner, lol.)
#happy420 #happyeaster
April 18, 2025 at 10:04 PM
BTW, I make reasonably priced edibles.
Have a Happy Hoppy 420 this year!
(Note: I do not deliver at the moment and any orders will be completed after 420. Yes, I should've advertised sooner, lol.)
#happy420 #happyeaster
Have a Happy Hoppy 420 this year!
(Note: I do not deliver at the moment and any orders will be completed after 420. Yes, I should've advertised sooner, lol.)
#happy420 #happyeaster
So far, leaving has been lonely. It becomes very clear that the only reason anyone interacted with you is to make themselves look or feel better.
Findom has become selfish and leaving shows just how selfish it is.
There's no community unless you look like everyone else.
I'm still not happy.
Findom has become selfish and leaving shows just how selfish it is.
There's no community unless you look like everyone else.
I'm still not happy.
April 12, 2025 at 12:18 AM
So far, leaving has been lonely. It becomes very clear that the only reason anyone interacted with you is to make themselves look or feel better.
Findom has become selfish and leaving shows just how selfish it is.
There's no community unless you look like everyone else.
I'm still not happy.
Findom has become selfish and leaving shows just how selfish it is.
There's no community unless you look like everyone else.
I'm still not happy.
Hey @craignotcreg.bsky.social
I've got something for you to try:
Monster Float
-2 scoops vanilla ice cream
-1 can of Monster (Fruit flavors like Peach and Strawberry work best)
Enjoy! 😁
I've got something for you to try:
Monster Float
-2 scoops vanilla ice cream
-1 can of Monster (Fruit flavors like Peach and Strawberry work best)
Enjoy! 😁
April 10, 2025 at 1:50 AM
Hey @craignotcreg.bsky.social
I've got something for you to try:
Monster Float
-2 scoops vanilla ice cream
-1 can of Monster (Fruit flavors like Peach and Strawberry work best)
Enjoy! 😁
I've got something for you to try:
Monster Float
-2 scoops vanilla ice cream
-1 can of Monster (Fruit flavors like Peach and Strawberry work best)
Enjoy! 😁