a lot can be said about how media has to SPECIFICALLY make a point that someone awful has a disability, which can perpetuate a lot of stigma that disabled people are inherently unfit to run in high positions.

people aren't awful because they're disabled. they're awful because they're awful.

genuienly wouldn't have cared if the person let me explain but nope. straight to jokes. didn't even know what the fuck they were talking about, then got mad at me (a disabled person) for correcting them.

alright whatever. its fine. not like they're real things.

vtubers are something that I want to like, but can't seem to find the right thing because its obvious that women aren't the target for most content creators, and it genuienly does get frustrating when people kinda just shrug me off and go "oh well."

i am a niche i guess, so shrug.

dont remember if I've said this before, but i often struggle with trying to find places where i belong.

if i feel as if its obvious that im not really the audience a thing is for, and i cant find enjoyment somewhere in it - it's hard for me to like something and stay be consistent with it.

definitely an autism diff as one of my sensory issues is being oversensitive to sound. its just, very hard to listen to most vtubers without wanting to shut the video off because they want to break the sound barrier.

i also just dont feel like im "straight" enough.

realistically, i can do lcb ishy because all I'd need is to make the shield and mace alongside the jacket (which wouldn't take too long).

but the delusion in me says dulcinea