I'm DONE with people talking about me behind my back, yet pretend like they are above that when I directly speak to them. I'm DONE feeling like I can never talk about what I went thru w/o being the bad guy.

I was afraid of retaliation, which is why I've hardly spoken about what I've been through. But I'm not wrong for having feelings about some things, even if nobody else understands.

By no means was I an angel myself, but I always took full responsibility for things I did. Show me one time I blamed one of my disabilities for me being out of line.

You always have something to blame other than yourself.
You send the wrong person something personal of mine?
"I have an auditory disability. Guess i should have let you know." (Yes, and that was your responsibility to tell, not mine to discover).

I could literally just miss your face and you'd say "text me, I'll comprehend it better", like part of our relationship died and I can't get it back, which honestly hurts a lot more than some other things that have happened.

I get isolated when I have something I feel is important to talk about.
Even when it isn't something important, I can never have the normal experience of just seeing you.

At first, it was "I love you", followed by promises to do better everyday, which were sparsely followed through with, and dried up when there seemed to be a vacant spot at my table.

So go easier on yourself, and focus on moving forward, while learning what you can from the past ❤️

Just because you got hurt again, does not mean you are stupid, or that you didn't learn anything, or that nobody will ever love you.

You showed your ability to trust, and in having it misused, you should know it isn't your fault.

pt. 2