It's a bit more complicated than that, but realistically, there's no good course of action left for me at this point.
But let me tell you this, the only thing I regret is that I didn't get a chance to properly defend myself. Things would've ended quite differently.

So yeah, shit's fucked.

This whole thread isn't an attempt to stir shit up or something. I genuinely don't have the mental capacity for it anymore. Nor is it an attempt to say "Oh poor me, boo-hoo". I'm not seeking pity towards myself.

That's about it.

Thinking about the events still makes me sick and throws me in a state of panic. Remembering people I used to talk to still brings me sadness and fear. I still can't recover and I don't know why. And I'm not really sure if I want to keep trying. I can't undo anything.

At that time, I truly felt like shit and genuinely believed, that I was a horrible person. Fast forward to the present day, nothing really changed.
Months of therapy, medical treatment, meditation and other spiritual bullshit - nothing helped. I still feel like I'm a horrible person.

Did I know what to do? - No
Was I scared? - Shitless
Did I believe everything said about me? - Yeah
So I decided to do the only thing I saw morally correct at that moment - kill myself. As you may see, I'm pretty bad at it. Tho, funnily enough, someone got upset over my failure.

So I got in a relationship. Like the majority of relationships, it ended. But unlike the majority of relationships, one day I woke up to bans, blocks, death threats and a Google doc full of accusations, screenshots of personal conversations and a lot of mildly displeased people.

I am, to say bluntly, a socially inept person. I don't feel comfortable around people and can barely grasp such basic concepts as friendship. I'm not always able to understand sarcasm or jokes and sometimes can get offended by the most insignificant things.

Nightreign is indeed amazing and I'd say better than the base game in some aspects. But there's a problem that renders it literally unplayable for me...

I don't have it 😞

In fact, plenty of people make even worse actions in private, so "why pay attention if I see this every day". Again, I can't really share my opinion regarding the person as it's not unbiased. My only prediction, majority of people will forget that this ever happened in about 2 weeks(?)

I understand your intentions, but unfortunately jokes about even more upsetting topics are not perceived as something bad by the general public. Unless it's someone really big or something really bad, people usually don't care.

I also want to emphasize that this whole rant is not my defense of the person, but an opinion on why the video doesn't serve its purpose.
Although the whole nsfw profile thingy is indeed pretty stupid. (7/7)

At the end of the day, the video is neither informative, because of the large amount of personal opinion added, nor is it a piece of mind, because other than “person bad”, there is no opinion. That's just not the way shit like this should be handled imo. (6/7)

The video can be summarized as "This person made an in**st joke, they probably likes in**st, and even if they don't, they're still a bad person. Also, dude, your defense is so trash my brain is melting, I have nothing to say." (5/7)

You talk about the stream and berate their response, but then state that "I don't wanna sit through 90 minutes worth of the stream" because you assume it's just QnA with chat and Webfishing gameplay. (4/7)

You're talking about the game being bad not because you played it, but because you were told it was bad because one of its themes is in**st. (3/7)

You said yourself that the point of the video is to inform others that the person in question has done a bad thing, yet you have done no research other than what *you were told*. (2/7)

While some people may see this topic as something “not THAT bad”, another problem that contributes to people disregarding it is that the video looks pretty sloppy. (1/7)